Wet Dedication!

Okay. first of all...no funny ideas upon reading the title! It's simply the literal description of an experience, which I and my friends had to go through today.

Have you ever given a thought as to how dedicated are you towards education and knowledge? I mean, we all stay up and study late at night, but thats on the eve of the exams. I am also not talking about certain people's abilities to go home, sincerely go through whatever shit they have been taught on that day, and come prepared the next day for more shit! They are not normal, but I am talking about people who enjoy life, have fun with friends, go on dates and stuff and most importantly, come back home and sit down for a brief interaction with books, just to be in touch! Honestly, I am talking about people like me! :D But coming back to the topic, what will you answer if asked that what is the extent that you will go to for education, which may be in or out of your course, or something that may be important to you just for the inclination factor? Well, for us, we got our answer today!

RKM Institute of Languages is a well known institute among people who like to do communicative language courses. Today, a bunch of us planned to get admission into the Spanish classes. Maybe to nurture our literal needs or simply to watch and understand Kites and Ricky Martin's songs, but whatever be the bloody reason, we opted to go and get the education! So we all reach our destination at 7 am in the morning, just to stand ahead of the line, and all we find is an irritating downpour!

Okay, let me tell you at this moment that for quite some days, Kolkata was not at all receiving its share of rains the way it does. So we were a bit sure that the morning sky will be cloudy, but will not pee down! But it seems THAKUR RAMKRISHNA had his own way of greeting us by sending this awesome and soothing, yet irritating rain for two whole hours!!! I mean it was as though the clouds were simply waiting for us people to gather and get drenched! The worry was not our clothes and shoes (and hair for one particular friend :D), but it was the documents were carrying in our bags!

So we try and nudge each other around, gathering in pairs under the umbrellas. But then the rain intensity saturates to such a level, that we were forced to bunk our envied line positions and seek covers. Now let me tell you, the institution security people are very generous. They thought that instead of letting us people in, it will be better to get wet and "clean" ourselves before entering this pious domain! As if we came directly from our beds!! But still, their dedication was to be praised by the institution and cursed by us! But all the very same, we seek another refuge, get bored and decide to nurture our raging belly's and end up freezing and squandering in a nearby cafe! We come back again to the line, only to find the rain more intense and the crowd more furious!

But whatever we did, we did not sway from our thirst of Spanish knowledge! We stayed there, dripping from head to toe in the rain, but we didn't move! Next the gates finally opened. I thought of organizing a stampede and running those generous guards over, but I guess we were too happy to go in than to do anything of that sort. So we complete our admission procedure, with just one more bump in the road and it was the non-acceptance of the much scammed Rs. 500 noted by the officials. So the search for change started, and it was really funny to see 70 odd people do it, simultaneously, in their own manner. But we finally overcome this factor and we get admitted into the Spanish Batch! Out we come of the institute and voila! The rains gone! :D

All I want to share in this section is that have you ever seen such instances when you are forced to prove your dedication for the love and lust (:P) for education? If not, I guess we are indeed lucky! Even though we feel terrible of the entire thought, but hey, we did it no. So go ahead! Face the worst hurdles and prove this point! Show your devotion and dedication towards education! Just see to it that if you sense it is gonna be a "wet" one, don't repeat my mistake, simply wear slippers and take an umbrella!

Need A Hug?

Have you ever had that feeling of getting frenzy and confused while selecting a lovely gift for an equally lovely friend? Have you ever had that feeling of getting literally "lost" in a gift shop, unable to decide whether to focus on budget or the type of gift? All in all, are you a loser in selecting gifts? If yes, I think you and I are on the same platform buddy!! :)

In today's world of versatile malls, a gift shop is what I feel a place to get lost into. You can just gaze on numerous items, that may or may not fit your criteria of a gift, but they allure you simply because it has been promoted quite efficiently. And the worse part, when it comes to beautiful ladies, you really have to think of the pros-&-cons of the entire gifting process. Okay, this is where I must admit that I do have a lot of female friends to depend on and I am writing this because every-time I feel like rewarding them for something special in their lives, I get into a REAL dilemma! But hey, I personally believe that a gift with a personal touch is something that goes easy on the pocket (:D), touches and pierces the heart more effectively, and the best part : you do not have to worry about the pros-cons at all! Because the gift I am talking about here is a TIGHT HUG!

You ever realize that if somebody comes and compliments you with a tight hug, you actually feel on top of the world subconsciously? I mean of course if its a hug from an opposite sex human, it would feel nice :D ;), but hey, just feel the emotion! From who-ever it is coming from. This kind of a gesture is a sole way to commute a thousand sentences into an act of seconds, to depict the affection in one's heart in its purest form and most importantly, it's a gift which can be returned without offending the rewarder!!!

Just imagine! You are feeling low and sitting alone. Along comes a friend and after seeing your condition, gives you tight hug and comforts you by holding you wrapped in his arms. Can you imagine the strength this sole act of care can give you? Or say another situation where you come to know of a happening that shoots up your level of elation so high, that you see your good friend coming, and even before saying anything, you hug her tightly! Seeing the emotion in you, don't you think she too will be equally happy? Of course after you tell her the reason, she'll return the hug back, and then? Just try to visualize the laughs that will be shared? Or say another scenario when you visit an old friend after a hell lot of time and you people hug each other! So soothing right?

All I am saying is that hugging is the purest act of gesture where you can convey the fact that "Yes you fool! I am worried and I do care for you!". Its just a non-verbal mode of expression. Did you know that 70% of all human interactions occur by visual emotional expressions and acts? This is just one of them! I am not saying that buying gifts, spending some money is a crime! But only this that do not ogle over materialistic articles so much that these emotional gestures loose their fragrance! Just remember, things, articles and stuff fade away with time! Both in their appeal and from our memories, but simple acts like these remain for a lifetime! I think you will agree with me right? So just after reading thing blog, I would say the best thing you can do is to go meet our dearest friend, call him/her up or simply text them (of course, you have the unlimited SMS promo rt?) simply to send them a virtual/real hug saying you care! Just see what happens next! :D :)

Why So Loud??

Ever had this experience of enjoying a calm ride in any transportation mean and then suddenly, your ears get back to the tuning of the noisy atmosphere simply because a person blabbers around you, pitching high on the decibel meter? Well, this may not look so surprising or an event to be shared about, but believe me, when you are drowned into your thoughts while say riding an AC bus, or simply dozing off for a while and you get exposed to something like this, you are bound to get angry!! And you know what makes you feel more irritated? It's upon seeing that loud-mouth guy, soaring across his noise level, having a goddamn earphone plugged into his ears!! Now that's irritating!

I had gone to receive a very dear friend of mine at the airport. After dropping her near her home, I was lucky enough to catch a Volvo Bus, as the heat was killing me! So I get on-board, find myself a nice, cosy seat with the AC on full blast. The distance was a bit long, so I thought of having a nice little nap as the day was quite hectic! But suddenly, out of nowhere come a shout " Dada, ticket the deben! Airport theke Rash Behari! Are Dada, ticket ta kaato! Taratari Dada, Taratari" (The gy simply wanted to buy the ticket). The shout was enough to dazzle every other passenger, and since he was just behind me, I thought of giving that son-of-a-bitch a dirty look! But you know what? I was simply annoyed even further! He was listening to the songs on hid pod, probably with full volume on as even I could hear the slight beats, and the earplugs were typically jammed into his ears! I donno whether this was his idea of looking cool, but I would say, he should have chosen a better place to listen to his tunes! Rather, at least at a better, compromising volume level!

Now I admit, I too sometimes listen in a similar fashion, out on the streets but I do make sure of one thing, that is to say the words in a normal tone. I mean, I am a sane person. Neither am I deaf! Why the hell should I have to verify to what I am saying my simply hearing the words that are coming out of my mouth, while my earphones are jammed in?? I know that sometimes, it is cool to simply roam around with earphones, but hey, shouldn't our simultaneous actions be normal as well? This is what drives me crazy and this is what drove me nuts on the bus! And guess what? I wasn't alone! Others too showed an eye movement of disgrace! But this mot**r f*c*r simply sat back into his seat, as calm as ever, looking as though the music was literally flowing through his deaf veins!!! But hold on, this was just the beginning! After a few mins, when his stop was arriving, he yelled out loud " DADA, ESHEGECHE?? OOO DADA, BOLONA, ESHEGECHE! NA ELE JANIYO! NAMTE HBE KINTU!!" (he just wanted to enquire whether his destination had come or not with the conductor, instructing him to inform). And this one, even louder!!! The irritating part is that he simply wouldn't allow a break or a pause within his sentences!

I don't know whether you would support me in this article or not, but goddamn, I was pissed off! Like hell! I mean not only is he a shame to our generation, trying to be cool, simply giving th elders to offend out actions even more, but also a loud guy! I myself am pretty loud, but I know the places when I should control my decibel meter. Don't know when these guys will understand!

Fluctuating Decisions!

Are you a chain smoker? Are you like a person who spends a large proportion of his money on cigarette packets and puffs? Are you also that person who loathes this addiction every single day, taking an oath to drive it out of your life, almost on a daily basis? Are you that person who, after so many decisions to quit smoking and pressures from the environment around you, unable to do so? Well, glad to have found you buddy!!!!! You are just like me then! :D :D

Ever had that mixed feeling of waking up to decide you are gonna quit the butt, but that very same evening, you end up puffing almost a packet? Believe me its bad! I mean, not exactly bad, but the feeling too is very mixed. So mixed, that you can't figure out whether its good or bad, but since the whole concept of smoking is bad, I'll take it to be bad!

Today, I was a bit down with fever. Its gone now, but the ache in the throat still remains, rendering me a bit "gloomy". During the day, I tried smoking a cigarette but it felt awful. I decided "It's high time! I will quit it permanently today!". In the afternoon, my mom accompanied me to the Doctor. But this guy and his antics was what really pissed me off! My mom usually complains about my habit to every person she can, and likewise did the same in front of this guy! Now after the check up, he takes us to his lounge for a cup of tea! And what do I see the first thing I enter the room? A large overflowing ashtray and a pack of cigarettes beside it. This guy lights up one, smokes while he sips away his tea and admits to being a chain smoker himself! So far so good, but next comes the hilarious part! He RECOMMENDS me to quit the butt, why? Because guys like him were fooled by this addiction back then, and he wants us to stay away from it!!!! I mean, here I was, looking at another chain smoker, advising another chain smoker to quit the butt! I do not challenge his competency, or his personal comments, but the least he could have done is to at least make me believe that he's not one of us! Maybe, I could have followed his advice a bit more rigidly! Now you tell me, can I ever take that guy seriously in my life?????

I just have one question! I know that at the end of the day, we are on the wrong side, and must hastily move towards the non-smoking life, but if these kind of things happen to you now and then, can you even think about quitting seriously???? I mean, I don't know about you guys, but my experiences have all been so much so similar to this incident! This includes my own dad, my elder bro! Man, I don't know if this is truly my bad luck, but how the hell am I supposed to make someone my idol towards quitting the butt? Some days later, that guy too turns up to be a smoker!!

I guess the best way is to really fork the idea out of your head, and not depend on some inspiration. But isn't having an inspiration far more effective? This is why I am really stuck up! So people, any suggestions, always welcome. Read and suggest, I'll just be back after a light! :D :P :D

Smiles!

The most novel yet deceptive expression even to be seen on a human face - SMILE! Yes, its true! But the context I am referring to here, today, is regarding the expression of pure happiness, the one that emerges after a long period from one's heart! That was the expression today on the four faces that chatted for a long time in a mall.

Few days ago, the plan was simply to meet up, comprising just two people, to discuss certain topics for an upcoming not-so-precious examination. But as we are good students (:P :D), we decided to take every aspect seriously. The venue was debated upon, the timing was fixed.

Few moments later, both had a certain wish in their minds - to call up whoever was available on that day to simply have a good time (as we knew how much we will study ;) :D). So the calls were made, text messages were sent. It was denial from every corner, and with that, we decided to stick to the studying part. Thus went the days and came the day of study! Right from the start, surprises loaded the day. The first was a sudden approval of the invitation. Immediate action was to alter the venue and timing a bit. Next I had to a friend, who also was invited, for a certain help. I don't know why, but I decided to knock at her door once again relating the evening plan! And Voila! It was accepted. Maybe it was the sentimental tone of my voice, or maybe her own wish, but who the hell cares! She came! And so did everybody!

Next, the slight discussions about the exam took place in an awfully swift manner. Next followed the hastiness to the venue. Fun on the way, fun all over the place! This was followed by the excitement and blabbering of all of us, maybe an expression to say "I missed you" or maybe just an overreaction to happiness! But whatever it was, its was there load and clear! The place's decibel meter went high and so did the fun and frolic. But we could see it all, each on either one of our faces : the SMILE. And trust me guys, it was truly awesome! :) :) :)

The Fun of Unplanned Actions! :) :D

We all like to do things in different ways. Some like to plan things ahead, move according to a schedule and finally go for the execution of the thoughts. Others decide on the spot, trying to live life on a wilder side! True that planning does make us more sophisticated and disciplined, but wtf, where's the fun and frolic associated with it?? Where;s the hype and the tension, before the action and the relief we get after the thing is done??

Everyone has seen the movie "The Dark Knight"! In one of the scenes, the Joker tries to sway Harvey Dent into Two-Face by arousing his passion against corruption and crime in a mind-twisting manner, by simply relaying the facts! One line that touched me was : "If I blew up a truck load of soldiers and had announced it before in the media, next day, when the explosion takes place, no one would panic as it was PART OF THE PLAN!" Okay, now I am no antisocial minded guy, but the thing I am highlighting here this aspect of split second decisions, plans, etc.

Yesterday, a part of our gang had a blast in a local exotic pub! The prices were high, but we had taken our own earnings to spend and as such, it was not a big burden on the hearts! But yes, we did decide to limit ourselves to slight drinks, maybe two pegs or less, but not more! But I ended up enjoying 3 pegs of scotch and five shots of tequila! One of my friend ended up having two pegs whiskey, a margaritta and one tequila! Others simple followed! It was a bit over the board, but hell did we enjoy! After last night, when we talked about the events, every moment was laughable! Of course, the feeling of seeing and being with each other after such a long time did matter, but the part of hastyness did matter too! Quite significantly! :D

All I am trying to say is that I am that sort of a guy who makes decisions on a split-second basis. I may come prepared and ready, but I will never fluctuate just before the action! That's me. Most of the times, these moments have served me well in one way or the other, but yes, some were equally bad! But whatsoever, the thing is, if you plan something ahead, be ready for instant changes! If you want to do something now, next moment you may want to do something better, so be prepared! Depending on the seriousness of the decision, try to alert your mind about the fluctuations if you are prone to those! Most importantly, live these moments, not later or loath over them afterwards! This is what really counts! :)

"My God! You guys are Crazy!!!"

Ok, let me clear the air out! The title is not regarding any person, but these are the exact words that came out of the mouth of a very special person in my life! It was an act of excitement blended with tinges of happiness and awe! :)

So, I and one of my friends plan up a certain act for today! Knowing it was the election day, but wtf...its for our sweet little friend yaar! So we went with forward with it! The actual reason of this surprise visit is to congratulate her brother for his outstanding result in the Secondary Exams! But beneath it was hidden a fact that we simply wanted to see her smile once again, as it had been ages since we got a glimpse of her! :D So, coming back, we went to her place, kept her busy on the phone so that she will not close her eyes for an afternoon nap and then it took place! The Surprise! We called her to her balcony, as if there a network problem on the phone, and then the eye to eye contact did the entire trick! She was glad, gleeful, joyous and most importantly happy to see us after so many days, just the way we were feeling and started coming down to open the door for us screaming the "title" ;) :D

But wait! All is not so easy to achieve! Let me remind you that today is Sunday! So her dad was enjoying a nice HBO movie when we rang the bell! So he came out with a stern look! Not knowing well who we were, he asked our purpose and name and we introduced ourselves in a bit shaky manner! It was fun to expect this kind of a reaction but believe me, it was a trembling one as well! But later, when her daughter introduced us properly, he recognized immediately and we engaged in an Indian custom of touching his feet! He was glad, we were more glad! :D :D

The day smoothened thereon! We gifted her brother and congratulated him! We was happy! We chatted for hours, in her room, on her terrace and it was pure fun! Then we were greeted by the delicious dishes made my her mom and I guess, I was more glad with just the aroma! We had fun! We chatted, flirted, leg-pulled each other, and at the end! It was a merry "goodbye" to sign the energetic day off! It was worth the time!

But what I truly want to mention here is that it was not simply her smile or the food which her mother prepared for us....but it was the feeling of just getting her glimpse once again! The smile is obvious (I mean, c'on...we are good friends for the past 3 years!), but what was playing in my mind was that I knew, that after so many days of monotonous studying in her home, maybe for a few moments, we were able to make her mind free! Especially as her exams are near, I think she needed that! We have spent a lot of time together on numerous accounts! But today was something different! Maybe it was me! O maybe it was simply the situation! But whatever be the reason, the aftermath feeling on both sides is something that was worth taking the hot and humid toll on the streets on a Kolkata-Election Day! :D :D Wishing her all the luck in the world for her upcoming examinations! And yes, I don't know whether she will read this blog or not, but I want to mention something over here! I remember that on a similar such event a few months back, she had made a request before me! I think that was fulfilled today and now the rest is up to her! Right dear? :) :)

Remembering the Old Days....

Last time I had seen him, it was three months ago! There childish looks, slight gnawing on the toys and immense display of energy via kicking legs and throwing hands! Yes, there was one thing that caught my eye! It was his big, round, intolerably cute black eyes! It rolled here and there, as if looking or searching for someone, as if the lens held numerous information and communication skills but it seemed that the age did not permit the tongue to be in the right command! Out came my friend, holding a toy and immediately, the eyes became vague watery, more diametric and filled with joy! It was as if the eyes looked out for her only! Well, this is the incident that I had noticed when I first met this new born! He is my friend's elder sister's son! I just gazed at their bond and for a moment, got lost in the memories with my own little brother!

Yesterday, I met him for the second time! He was fiddling in his new toy car! He had grown a lot and the first reaction he gave me was a bit of a recognizing look! Yes, he had recognized me! The minute I took him in my arms it felt as though my own brother was back in his toddler days! I still remember the times when it was under my responsibility to look after him and feed him during the evenings, when my Mom was out for some work! I did that religiously, as if that was the most important thing in the world, and let me tell you, it truly was! I still remember the time when he used to cry and stop the minute I was in front of him! That innocent giggle, that selfless and pious look was to mesmerizing to remember any of the duties! I used to stand and gaze on him! But after his hunger was out of control, he diligently reminded me of my work by starting to cry once again! Those were the really cute days that I miss!

The thing I want to point out here is that this kind of a relationship, a brother-brother, a brother sister or any other combination is truly pure like it had never been! Just look out during the recent times! Yes, we do have fights, certain ego problems, certain attitude problems, but one thing is damn sure! At the end of the day, it always is that I look out to check his well being, and he looks up upon me to check I'm there or not! This is the moment that I enjoy the most! Even though I'm in my twenties and he's in his teens, this relation has been untouched, and I truly pray to God to keep it so!

There are times when we want our brothers or sisters out of the room or company. Sometimes for selfish reasons,and others for their own good! But do remember one thing! Never take your younger sibling for granted! Ever! They are bound to follow you in every aspect and so, if you want respect, teach them to do so by respecting them! If you want them to be able, set an example by doing so yourself! If you just want a smile on their faces, do the things that are bound to bring one, but remember! Do not spoil them! At times, we need to act tough! It looks as if the elders are heartless, and simply dominating the younger ones, but when I act tough with my brother, only I know how it feels! It feels terrible!

I decided to write this with not any intention to send a message out to you, or to enhance my writing skills, but just because today morning, I felt like jotting down this incident of my trip down the memory lane! I love my brother very very much! And I love that toddler very much for reminding this incident back to me! God Bless him!

Hope I Do Good

This one is regarding a certain thing that I am doing on my mom's request! Rather, I would say helping out someone to be able to achieve something in his life. My housemaid's son in currently in his high school days. He's got brains but not the atmosphere of education. He's got moral support, but lacks financial support! So when my maid asked mom about helping him out with his studies, mom asked me to do it! Now I love teaching! I enjoy it very very much and thus I agreed!

But to be honest with you, I had got into a duel with my mom over this issue as I knew I wouldn't be getting anything in return! I was used to the more practical mode of tutions - go, teach and get paid! (I mean, come on. I have things of my own to do, and even though I love teaching, I so expect something in return) So, my mom insisted and I had to succumb as she had given her word! This was me about a month ago. But now, I regret over my actions as I recollect all these! The reason is as follows!

The first day, this boy comes to my home and we sit down to go ahead! I take out a book and start explaining him all the related topics and aspects of that chapter and he listens intently! After the half hour session, he speaks for the first time. He asks me a doubt about a certain topic, and mind you...the question was very very apt and to the point! This attitude struck me and left me mesmerized for a few moments as I did not expect this from a boy his age! I gladly explained! He left and I kept thinking about this! The next day he comes, I learn that he didn't even touch the assignments that I had given him to complete! I was a bit angry, but I waited for the reason to fall on my ears! He told me that his mom returned late and so he had to wait till her return at his neighbour's house. Next day, he had school early and he dozed off! Genuine, but still I had expected him to give more effort!

A week later, he turns up again, as scheduled. This time, he had completed the work and stormed me with doubts. First I thought that did i guide him properly? But leaving that thought to a corner, I learned that he literally pondered over the matter that was taught to him and and had gone deep. Now this was something that I was seeing for the first time in my life. I mean come on, even I wasn't so sincere. That session ended after an hour or so and on that day, I realised something very humourous!

All these years, I was teaching numerous grades and they responded well. But I was happy only on my pay day (no laughs or sulks here, please! It's just human nature). But after that day, I truly got to realise that my claim of loving to teach was true! I felt very humble yet proud to have taught this boy. However, this feeling drowned in another mixed feeling of self-sulkness over the fact that the thing which my mother had realised was good took me such a long time to realise! God! I had even fought with her to avoid the boy! I guess that's the reason why mothers are mothers. But coming back to the topic, what I want to convey here is the fact that we do a lot of things in life which we love or which excite us to the supreme! But have we ever, on our own, given a thought about doing that same stuff with the same dedication, for FREE??? I don't about you, but before this, I definitely did not!

We all have talents and we love them! We love the fact more that we can sell them and try for that desperately. But have we ever shared it for free? Not for self gains but to help others? Not for financial stability but solely for self satisfaction? I think that maximum of us, especially of our generation, thinks in such a manner! Try it! If you think that doing a certain job makes you happy, heres the golden test - just do it for free! Do it with full dedication, but zero expectation! Then you can really justify your claim! I just learned this the hard way! Hope you can do it better!

Now, the present scenario is that I look forward to teaching this boy whenever I get time! Even though I can be dead tired, but I know that doing this will make me feel good about myself! Moreover, what I truly hope for is to do him good! That's my real aim as of now!

Watching a Friend Grow!

Okay....first of all, let me clear it out that there's no need to go overboard with ideas in your mind while taking a glimpse of the title. Its not a literal meaning, rather a metaphor! Yes, it is! This is just another experience which has taught me something in life that I want to share with everyone reading this!

Disclaimer : No Names have been mentioned (so please don't panic). No events have been cited (so others don't panic).

I remember an incident that took place about 2 years ago, back during the freshers age. This one evening, one of my friends state about an appointment which she was supposed to attend! Now at this point, let me just tell you that this "she" is one of my closest buddies (knowing quite a lot of secrets about me) and that she's already in a profession right now! But back at that time, the friendship was not so developed, but it was worth a mention! She had a problem of visiting the office alone so she asked me to escort her. I gladly agreed! The meeting was about her then-budding career in which she was very determined, and I respect this aspect about anybody! Now, she doesn't know this but I had some very important work of my own which needed dire attention that evening! Still I went ahead! Naturally, the meeting got delayed and overshooted my allowance time and as a result, I had to postpone my appointment and I returned home at about 11:30 that night! But I was happy to help her out! :)

After two lovely years to friendship, a lot of things had changed. There were awesome fights, duels but one thing remained unaffected : the trust and care! So today, another such situation had arrived before me just a few hours back! But now, her career was on a roll! She had worked hard and was now in an established position! Anyways, I accepted to help her out! I went ahead to go with her, again as a trusted aide. But what she doesn't know is that I had to again postpone certain things in order to help her out! But that's not the issue here! In todays meeting, she got a chance of her lifetime! This chance could well establish a firm foundation in her career, acting as the first crucial brick! She was happy and excited! And me? I was overjoyed! :) :)

What I am saying here is that I have simple watched her grow, professionally, in front of my eyes! I have nothing to do with her career, nothing to gain, nothing to lose and most importantly, I have no contributions! Its just her trust on me and the smile that breaks onto her face that makes me feel elated! It just that slight emotion of anxiety on her forehead that makes me care for her! It just those compliments that other seniors give her that makes me proud of her! Yes, its true! I just enjoy the emotions and the moments of having been there with her from the start!
I couldn't say all these to her on her face as it would make her teem with happiness and knowing her, she may start to cry! Lemme remind you, I cannot see her cry! I couldn't say all these to her, before, as I had a fear that it would have made her a bit vain and, maybe, would have affected her actions! But after 2 whole years, seeing her progress, I have no fear of expressing myself in front of her now!

With this, I would just like to thank her for allowing me to savor these moments in my memory and for her rock-hard trust on me! I don't whether I can make it up to her, but I would definitely try to be get closer! Best of luck for the upcoming days dear! Hope you get every lovely opportunity in the future! And yes! TREAT!!! :D :D :D

Time Out!

So...after quite a hiatus and hectic months, I guess I'm back to doing what I enjoy doing the most - writing! :)

These days, the feeling and atmosphere is very very pathetic. We have completed our exams and are now slogging away at training/project institutes while the other half of our friends are busy with long hours on the study table as they have their exams near sight! It is truly pathetic because for us because we are scattered here and there, with bleak chances to group up and have fun. But for those who are readily available are busy studying and hence, the moral is that the mornings go very hectic while the much anticipated evenings slog too much to fly by! But hey, its only a matter of a few days, so I am personally looking forward to it!

Why am I writing on such a lame topic? It's because I have duly reached my institute on time but my Professor, my mentor of the month, my project guide is yet to show his face at the reception! What to do? Nothing. Just wait.....wait....wait...wa...u get the point right? ;) Thank God that SINP has a very very lovable, cosy and most importantly, an air-conditioned (:D) library with free net access! So this is where I am at present doing this instead of fiddling with the chemicals in the lab!

But what I really feel while writing for this kinda topic is that hey...this too is a kind of time out for me! Okay, I am getting it even before the start of my day! But it still is! I have decided to relax, surf the net a bit....log on to facebook and try new applications and most importantly, write a few lines. I could have done numerous other things! There's this hot chick in the institute, who's right now laughing her time away at the canteen. I could have been with her. I could have taken a puff and a cup of tea! But I think this is what is giving me the current boost in the energy while at leisure!

Think about it! Sometimes we seem to run out of action with hell lot of time in hand. Sometimes, it just the opposite! So like, what to do? Manage time well and all that crap? I think NOT! I believe that leisure time is something that deserves attention to what we love doing the most, without taking much stress and stuff! Don't you think so? I mean, some people are born couch-potatoes! They love their hours in front of the idiot box! Some simple love to cuddle back into bed! Others may enjoy a game outside and so on and on and on......

But what the point is that whatever we do, we should enjoy it and after the event is over, the thought of having wasted your time on that should not come into play! What's the use of such a livingness then? Moreover, we often are guided as to do this in your free time, do that, manage this and that and so on and on... But I say bunk them out of your eardrums! Just follow your heart! That's the true way to enjoy life at a position where we all are today! So next time you have ample time in hand and you prefer to sleep it away, you being a sleep-a-holic, do not regret! Just be cool! Look at me! I am writing a blog at my project center simply waiting for my professor to come and dictate his instructions on me! I am cool and chilling out! Do it! You'll need it! Especially in this kinda heat!

I Have A Feeling....

After 4 poems...I decided to write in phrase this time, rather than in rhyme! The topic is nothing to be speculated about, or to make guesses about...it's simply an expression of certain things that play in my mind and about my current mental state!

They say that it's divine to loved, even more austere to be loved and most importantly, simply heaven-like to be in love! HARD and HEAVY words, I must say. But more than being a common notion, these lines mean something in my own life! Its been quite sometime since I'm rediscovering certain aspects within myself, which earlier I had thought to be inexistent! Simply speaking...I have a feeling! Its a feeling to be cherished, to be proud of, to be enjoyed and most importantly, it's something that is to be respected! What's that feeling? Well....this is a public forum....so no direct answers!

Other than all these, there is something that has been bothering me! It is the effect of "mixed-feelings"! I mean, most of the time, when our minds and hearts clash against one another, we do something which we repent upon later! On the personal front, I have experienced this too many a times and finally (ultimately, phew :D), I have come to a conclusion that though my feeling matters a lot to me, the one and only thing I should look out for is not to execute it at all times....but to propagate it by varies mean! Frankly speaking, some things are not meant to be enjoyed but rather are meant to be shared! Believe me, its true!

Whenever I see certain things occurring in the opposite direction to me expectations...I get weird feelings! But hey, if I see that the person involved is happy and is enjoying, I stay back and watch her smile. My mind tells me to take control...but my heart prompts me to just watch the smile and be happy. Strange, but yes! This is the way! Whenever I see that there is a chance of someone else stepping easily into my shoes, I get nervous, anxious and sometimes egoistic! But that's momentary! I just look at the mental calmness and serenity of the person involved and watch her happiness, which in turn makes me smile! Strange, but yes! It is true...

All I'm trying to say is that feelings are to be shared and cherished, not meant to be hidden and shy away from! If you have something going on in your heart...speak it aloud! Let everyone know! So, what if it doesn't turn out the way it should have....at least there's some purity in your feeling, rt? Just enjoy and lets things move as they are.

There In Lies My Dream!

To be able to charm myriad friends as well as foes,
On the murky road towards El-Dorado.
To be able to bring on their faces, a gentle smile,
Devoid of anguish or thoughts that are vile.
To be able to accomplish my goal with dignity,
Trying to upgrade my modesty and sanctity, simultaneously.
To those quite erratic and bigoted, strange it may seem,
But there in lies my dream!

To be of immense help to those with gratitude,
Whilst solacing myself with chastity and attitude,
To serve back with complete ardor and generosity,
Trying to pep-up all without any kind of calumny.
To be able to live and let live, non-parsimoniously,
Trying to establish my very own dune, in the vast desert of history.
Some may applaud, others may beam,
But to be true, there in lies my dream!

To acquire curio tastes and tang,
To be able to kick off anything, with a louder then ever bang!
To be able to maintain standards, that leaves others agape,
Yet try to remain simple, plain at heart: in perfect shape!
To be able to move with the times ahead and near,
Yet to be involved with the past, without any shame or fear.
All in all, I would like to say,
That whatever be my action, thought or sway,
To be a true human being, who with honor, will teem,
There in lies my true dream!!!

I'm Not Afar...

(This is ode to my mom....remembering the days and the time when I was away from her)

Gazing up at the star-lit sky & journeying down the memory lane,
I feel your presence everywhere, right from the frosty winds, to the sun and rain,
Thinking that you are away…
I go a bit nervous, I must say,
But let me tell you mom, that though there maybe a distance bar,
From you, I was never afar…

The shackles of daily life, as you may know…
Frequently takes me to my physical low,
The vanity of people around me,
Often makes me sarcastic about everyone, as you may see,
But let me tell you mom that this is the fact,
Remembering the values you taught me, I try to stay intact.

The eerie nights which I spend awake,
Be it for my commitments, or for my academic’s sake,
The calmness and the night so lone…
Makes me remind myself about our duels and my harsh tone,
But let me tell you mom that when I look back,
I always see myself wrong, my mind in the ignorant sack,
But I assure you that you have always been kind and true…
So I have to admit, if there’s someone for me always, it has to be only YOU!

So, mom, all in all…
Your love for me has been always been tall.
I know that your affection is beyond bounds, without mar…
Though I may be away….but I’m not afar!

Dear Friend...

This is just to let you know,
That there is someone, somewhere in this world; definitely not a foe.
A being to pat your back in times of cheers
And also to wipe away, in times of anguish, your tears.
A person on whom you can, blindfolded, rely,
With whom you can share your dark shades, no need to feel shy,
This is just to let you know that whatever be the stance, joy or despair,
I will always be there!

Times will come when we may, away from each other, sway,
But let me inform you that prejudice and eschew will never grow, come what may.
Times will come when we may, in our thoughts and actions, differ,
But respect and benevolence amongst us will never suffer.
Times will also come when we may, each other, taunt and rag,
But believe me; never will deportment come when fun turns into shag!
This is just to let you know that whatever be our stance, meant to give, take or share,
I will always be there!

Strange it may seem that someone, in despondency, will care,
But I would take palliative measures for you, only to be fair.
Strange it may seem that someone, during festered times, will stand by,
My friend, agape you will be to learn that I will; with a fillip touch without a sigh!
Strange it may seem that someone, with misanthropes, can act so graciously,
Well, gregarious I am then, magnanimous as well, but I will try and reach you deep within, non-apprehensively.
This to let you know that whatever be your stance, showing attitude or care,
I will always be there!

So dear friend, to conclude,
May I suggest we move on beyond our petty feuds?
Towards a world, more disparate, congeal and fair,
Don’t jitter, come hold my hand and commence, because I will always be there,
Without any vituperation and fear, enter my lambent friendship lair,
Just remember, come what may, for you I will always be there!