Ok, let me clear the air out! The title is not regarding any person, but these are the exact words that came out of the mouth of a very special person in my life! It was an act of excitement blended with tinges of happiness and awe! :)
So, I and one of my friends plan up a certain act for today! Knowing it was the election day, but wtf...its for our sweet little friend yaar! So we went with forward with it! The actual reason of this surprise visit is to congratulate her brother for his outstanding result in the Secondary Exams! But beneath it was hidden a fact that we simply wanted to see her smile once again, as it had been ages since we got a glimpse of her! :D So, coming back, we went to her place, kept her busy on the phone so that she will not close her eyes for an afternoon nap and then it took place! The Surprise! We called her to her balcony, as if there a network problem on the phone, and then the eye to eye contact did the entire trick! She was glad, gleeful, joyous and most importantly happy to see us after so many days, just the way we were feeling and started coming down to open the door for us screaming the "title" ;) :D
But wait! All is not so easy to achieve! Let me remind you that today is Sunday! So her dad was enjoying a nice HBO movie when we rang the bell! So he came out with a stern look! Not knowing well who we were, he asked our purpose and name and we introduced ourselves in a bit shaky manner! It was fun to expect this kind of a reaction but believe me, it was a trembling one as well! But later, when her daughter introduced us properly, he recognized immediately and we engaged in an Indian custom of touching his feet! He was glad, we were more glad! :D :D
The day smoothened thereon! We gifted her brother and congratulated him! We was happy! We chatted for hours, in her room, on her terrace and it was pure fun! Then we were greeted by the delicious dishes made my her mom and I guess, I was more glad with just the aroma! We had fun! We chatted, flirted, leg-pulled each other, and at the end! It was a merry "goodbye" to sign the energetic day off! It was worth the time!
But what I truly want to mention here is that it was not simply her smile or the food which her mother prepared for us....but it was the feeling of just getting her glimpse once again! The smile is obvious (I mean, c'on...we are good friends for the past 3 years!), but what was playing in my mind was that I knew, that after so many days of monotonous studying in her home, maybe for a few moments, we were able to make her mind free! Especially as her exams are near, I think she needed that! We have spent a lot of time together on numerous accounts! But today was something different! Maybe it was me! O maybe it was simply the situation! But whatever be the reason, the aftermath feeling on both sides is something that was worth taking the hot and humid toll on the streets on a Kolkata-Election Day! :D :D Wishing her all the luck in the world for her upcoming examinations! And yes, I don't know whether she will read this blog or not, but I want to mention something over here! I remember that on a similar such event a few months back, she had made a request before me! I think that was fulfilled today and now the rest is up to her! Right dear? :) :)
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
Remembering the Old Days....
Last time I had seen him, it was three months ago! There childish looks, slight gnawing on the toys and immense display of energy via kicking legs and throwing hands! Yes, there was one thing that caught my eye! It was his big, round, intolerably cute black eyes! It rolled here and there, as if looking or searching for someone, as if the lens held numerous information and communication skills but it seemed that the age did not permit the tongue to be in the right command! Out came my friend, holding a toy and immediately, the eyes became vague watery, more diametric and filled with joy! It was as if the eyes looked out for her only! Well, this is the incident that I had noticed when I first met this new born! He is my friend's elder sister's son! I just gazed at their bond and for a moment, got lost in the memories with my own little brother!
Yesterday, I met him for the second time! He was fiddling in his new toy car! He had grown a lot and the first reaction he gave me was a bit of a recognizing look! Yes, he had recognized me! The minute I took him in my arms it felt as though my own brother was back in his toddler days! I still remember the times when it was under my responsibility to look after him and feed him during the evenings, when my Mom was out for some work! I did that religiously, as if that was the most important thing in the world, and let me tell you, it truly was! I still remember the time when he used to cry and stop the minute I was in front of him! That innocent giggle, that selfless and pious look was to mesmerizing to remember any of the duties! I used to stand and gaze on him! But after his hunger was out of control, he diligently reminded me of my work by starting to cry once again! Those were the really cute days that I miss!
The thing I want to point out here is that this kind of a relationship, a brother-brother, a brother sister or any other combination is truly pure like it had never been! Just look out during the recent times! Yes, we do have fights, certain ego problems, certain attitude problems, but one thing is damn sure! At the end of the day, it always is that I look out to check his well being, and he looks up upon me to check I'm there or not! This is the moment that I enjoy the most! Even though I'm in my twenties and he's in his teens, this relation has been untouched, and I truly pray to God to keep it so!
There are times when we want our brothers or sisters out of the room or company. Sometimes for selfish reasons,and others for their own good! But do remember one thing! Never take your younger sibling for granted! Ever! They are bound to follow you in every aspect and so, if you want respect, teach them to do so by respecting them! If you want them to be able, set an example by doing so yourself! If you just want a smile on their faces, do the things that are bound to bring one, but remember! Do not spoil them! At times, we need to act tough! It looks as if the elders are heartless, and simply dominating the younger ones, but when I act tough with my brother, only I know how it feels! It feels terrible!
I decided to write this with not any intention to send a message out to you, or to enhance my writing skills, but just because today morning, I felt like jotting down this incident of my trip down the memory lane! I love my brother very very much! And I love that toddler very much for reminding this incident back to me! God Bless him!
Yesterday, I met him for the second time! He was fiddling in his new toy car! He had grown a lot and the first reaction he gave me was a bit of a recognizing look! Yes, he had recognized me! The minute I took him in my arms it felt as though my own brother was back in his toddler days! I still remember the times when it was under my responsibility to look after him and feed him during the evenings, when my Mom was out for some work! I did that religiously, as if that was the most important thing in the world, and let me tell you, it truly was! I still remember the time when he used to cry and stop the minute I was in front of him! That innocent giggle, that selfless and pious look was to mesmerizing to remember any of the duties! I used to stand and gaze on him! But after his hunger was out of control, he diligently reminded me of my work by starting to cry once again! Those were the really cute days that I miss!
The thing I want to point out here is that this kind of a relationship, a brother-brother, a brother sister or any other combination is truly pure like it had never been! Just look out during the recent times! Yes, we do have fights, certain ego problems, certain attitude problems, but one thing is damn sure! At the end of the day, it always is that I look out to check his well being, and he looks up upon me to check I'm there or not! This is the moment that I enjoy the most! Even though I'm in my twenties and he's in his teens, this relation has been untouched, and I truly pray to God to keep it so!
There are times when we want our brothers or sisters out of the room or company. Sometimes for selfish reasons,and others for their own good! But do remember one thing! Never take your younger sibling for granted! Ever! They are bound to follow you in every aspect and so, if you want respect, teach them to do so by respecting them! If you want them to be able, set an example by doing so yourself! If you just want a smile on their faces, do the things that are bound to bring one, but remember! Do not spoil them! At times, we need to act tough! It looks as if the elders are heartless, and simply dominating the younger ones, but when I act tough with my brother, only I know how it feels! It feels terrible!
I decided to write this with not any intention to send a message out to you, or to enhance my writing skills, but just because today morning, I felt like jotting down this incident of my trip down the memory lane! I love my brother very very much! And I love that toddler very much for reminding this incident back to me! God Bless him!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Hope I Do Good
This one is regarding a certain thing that I am doing on my mom's request! Rather, I would say helping out someone to be able to achieve something in his life. My housemaid's son in currently in his high school days. He's got brains but not the atmosphere of education. He's got moral support, but lacks financial support! So when my maid asked mom about helping him out with his studies, mom asked me to do it! Now I love teaching! I enjoy it very very much and thus I agreed!
But to be honest with you, I had got into a duel with my mom over this issue as I knew I wouldn't be getting anything in return! I was used to the more practical mode of tutions - go, teach and get paid! (I mean, come on. I have things of my own to do, and even though I love teaching, I so expect something in return) So, my mom insisted and I had to succumb as she had given her word! This was me about a month ago. But now, I regret over my actions as I recollect all these! The reason is as follows!
The first day, this boy comes to my home and we sit down to go ahead! I take out a book and start explaining him all the related topics and aspects of that chapter and he listens intently! After the half hour session, he speaks for the first time. He asks me a doubt about a certain topic, and mind you...the question was very very apt and to the point! This attitude struck me and left me mesmerized for a few moments as I did not expect this from a boy his age! I gladly explained! He left and I kept thinking about this! The next day he comes, I learn that he didn't even touch the assignments that I had given him to complete! I was a bit angry, but I waited for the reason to fall on my ears! He told me that his mom returned late and so he had to wait till her return at his neighbour's house. Next day, he had school early and he dozed off! Genuine, but still I had expected him to give more effort!
A week later, he turns up again, as scheduled. This time, he had completed the work and stormed me with doubts. First I thought that did i guide him properly? But leaving that thought to a corner, I learned that he literally pondered over the matter that was taught to him and and had gone deep. Now this was something that I was seeing for the first time in my life. I mean come on, even I wasn't so sincere. That session ended after an hour or so and on that day, I realised something very humourous!
All these years, I was teaching numerous grades and they responded well. But I was happy only on my pay day (no laughs or sulks here, please! It's just human nature). But after that day, I truly got to realise that my claim of loving to teach was true! I felt very humble yet proud to have taught this boy. However, this feeling drowned in another mixed feeling of self-sulkness over the fact that the thing which my mother had realised was good took me such a long time to realise! God! I had even fought with her to avoid the boy! I guess that's the reason why mothers are mothers. But coming back to the topic, what I want to convey here is the fact that we do a lot of things in life which we love or which excite us to the supreme! But have we ever, on our own, given a thought about doing that same stuff with the same dedication, for FREE??? I don't about you, but before this, I definitely did not!
We all have talents and we love them! We love the fact more that we can sell them and try for that desperately. But have we ever shared it for free? Not for self gains but to help others? Not for financial stability but solely for self satisfaction? I think that maximum of us, especially of our generation, thinks in such a manner! Try it! If you think that doing a certain job makes you happy, heres the golden test - just do it for free! Do it with full dedication, but zero expectation! Then you can really justify your claim! I just learned this the hard way! Hope you can do it better!
Now, the present scenario is that I look forward to teaching this boy whenever I get time! Even though I can be dead tired, but I know that doing this will make me feel good about myself! Moreover, what I truly hope for is to do him good! That's my real aim as of now!
But to be honest with you, I had got into a duel with my mom over this issue as I knew I wouldn't be getting anything in return! I was used to the more practical mode of tutions - go, teach and get paid! (I mean, come on. I have things of my own to do, and even though I love teaching, I so expect something in return) So, my mom insisted and I had to succumb as she had given her word! This was me about a month ago. But now, I regret over my actions as I recollect all these! The reason is as follows!
The first day, this boy comes to my home and we sit down to go ahead! I take out a book and start explaining him all the related topics and aspects of that chapter and he listens intently! After the half hour session, he speaks for the first time. He asks me a doubt about a certain topic, and mind you...the question was very very apt and to the point! This attitude struck me and left me mesmerized for a few moments as I did not expect this from a boy his age! I gladly explained! He left and I kept thinking about this! The next day he comes, I learn that he didn't even touch the assignments that I had given him to complete! I was a bit angry, but I waited for the reason to fall on my ears! He told me that his mom returned late and so he had to wait till her return at his neighbour's house. Next day, he had school early and he dozed off! Genuine, but still I had expected him to give more effort!
A week later, he turns up again, as scheduled. This time, he had completed the work and stormed me with doubts. First I thought that did i guide him properly? But leaving that thought to a corner, I learned that he literally pondered over the matter that was taught to him and and had gone deep. Now this was something that I was seeing for the first time in my life. I mean come on, even I wasn't so sincere. That session ended after an hour or so and on that day, I realised something very humourous!
All these years, I was teaching numerous grades and they responded well. But I was happy only on my pay day (no laughs or sulks here, please! It's just human nature). But after that day, I truly got to realise that my claim of loving to teach was true! I felt very humble yet proud to have taught this boy. However, this feeling drowned in another mixed feeling of self-sulkness over the fact that the thing which my mother had realised was good took me such a long time to realise! God! I had even fought with her to avoid the boy! I guess that's the reason why mothers are mothers. But coming back to the topic, what I want to convey here is the fact that we do a lot of things in life which we love or which excite us to the supreme! But have we ever, on our own, given a thought about doing that same stuff with the same dedication, for FREE??? I don't about you, but before this, I definitely did not!
We all have talents and we love them! We love the fact more that we can sell them and try for that desperately. But have we ever shared it for free? Not for self gains but to help others? Not for financial stability but solely for self satisfaction? I think that maximum of us, especially of our generation, thinks in such a manner! Try it! If you think that doing a certain job makes you happy, heres the golden test - just do it for free! Do it with full dedication, but zero expectation! Then you can really justify your claim! I just learned this the hard way! Hope you can do it better!
Now, the present scenario is that I look forward to teaching this boy whenever I get time! Even though I can be dead tired, but I know that doing this will make me feel good about myself! Moreover, what I truly hope for is to do him good! That's my real aim as of now!
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Watching a Friend Grow!
Okay....first of all, let me clear it out that there's no need to go overboard with ideas in your mind while taking a glimpse of the title. Its not a literal meaning, rather a metaphor! Yes, it is! This is just another experience which has taught me something in life that I want to share with everyone reading this!
Disclaimer : No Names have been mentioned (so please don't panic). No events have been cited (so others don't panic).
I remember an incident that took place about 2 years ago, back during the freshers age. This one evening, one of my friends state about an appointment which she was supposed to attend! Now at this point, let me just tell you that this "she" is one of my closest buddies (knowing quite a lot of secrets about me) and that she's already in a profession right now! But back at that time, the friendship was not so developed, but it was worth a mention! She had a problem of visiting the office alone so she asked me to escort her. I gladly agreed! The meeting was about her then-budding career in which she was very determined, and I respect this aspect about anybody! Now, she doesn't know this but I had some very important work of my own which needed dire attention that evening! Still I went ahead! Naturally, the meeting got delayed and overshooted my allowance time and as a result, I had to postpone my appointment and I returned home at about 11:30 that night! But I was happy to help her out! :)
After two lovely years to friendship, a lot of things had changed. There were awesome fights, duels but one thing remained unaffected : the trust and care! So today, another such situation had arrived before me just a few hours back! But now, her career was on a roll! She had worked hard and was now in an established position! Anyways, I accepted to help her out! I went ahead to go with her, again as a trusted aide. But what she doesn't know is that I had to again postpone certain things in order to help her out! But that's not the issue here! In todays meeting, she got a chance of her lifetime! This chance could well establish a firm foundation in her career, acting as the first crucial brick! She was happy and excited! And me? I was overjoyed! :) :)
What I am saying here is that I have simple watched her grow, professionally, in front of my eyes! I have nothing to do with her career, nothing to gain, nothing to lose and most importantly, I have no contributions! Its just her trust on me and the smile that breaks onto her face that makes me feel elated! It just that slight emotion of anxiety on her forehead that makes me care for her! It just those compliments that other seniors give her that makes me proud of her! Yes, its true! I just enjoy the emotions and the moments of having been there with her from the start!
I couldn't say all these to her on her face as it would make her teem with happiness and knowing her, she may start to cry! Lemme remind you, I cannot see her cry! I couldn't say all these to her, before, as I had a fear that it would have made her a bit vain and, maybe, would have affected her actions! But after 2 whole years, seeing her progress, I have no fear of expressing myself in front of her now!
With this, I would just like to thank her for allowing me to savor these moments in my memory and for her rock-hard trust on me! I don't whether I can make it up to her, but I would definitely try to be get closer! Best of luck for the upcoming days dear! Hope you get every lovely opportunity in the future! And yes! TREAT!!! :D :D :D
Disclaimer : No Names have been mentioned (so please don't panic). No events have been cited (so others don't panic).
I remember an incident that took place about 2 years ago, back during the freshers age. This one evening, one of my friends state about an appointment which she was supposed to attend! Now at this point, let me just tell you that this "she" is one of my closest buddies (knowing quite a lot of secrets about me) and that she's already in a profession right now! But back at that time, the friendship was not so developed, but it was worth a mention! She had a problem of visiting the office alone so she asked me to escort her. I gladly agreed! The meeting was about her then-budding career in which she was very determined, and I respect this aspect about anybody! Now, she doesn't know this but I had some very important work of my own which needed dire attention that evening! Still I went ahead! Naturally, the meeting got delayed and overshooted my allowance time and as a result, I had to postpone my appointment and I returned home at about 11:30 that night! But I was happy to help her out! :)
After two lovely years to friendship, a lot of things had changed. There were awesome fights, duels but one thing remained unaffected : the trust and care! So today, another such situation had arrived before me just a few hours back! But now, her career was on a roll! She had worked hard and was now in an established position! Anyways, I accepted to help her out! I went ahead to go with her, again as a trusted aide. But what she doesn't know is that I had to again postpone certain things in order to help her out! But that's not the issue here! In todays meeting, she got a chance of her lifetime! This chance could well establish a firm foundation in her career, acting as the first crucial brick! She was happy and excited! And me? I was overjoyed! :) :)
What I am saying here is that I have simple watched her grow, professionally, in front of my eyes! I have nothing to do with her career, nothing to gain, nothing to lose and most importantly, I have no contributions! Its just her trust on me and the smile that breaks onto her face that makes me feel elated! It just that slight emotion of anxiety on her forehead that makes me care for her! It just those compliments that other seniors give her that makes me proud of her! Yes, its true! I just enjoy the emotions and the moments of having been there with her from the start!
I couldn't say all these to her on her face as it would make her teem with happiness and knowing her, she may start to cry! Lemme remind you, I cannot see her cry! I couldn't say all these to her, before, as I had a fear that it would have made her a bit vain and, maybe, would have affected her actions! But after 2 whole years, seeing her progress, I have no fear of expressing myself in front of her now!
With this, I would just like to thank her for allowing me to savor these moments in my memory and for her rock-hard trust on me! I don't whether I can make it up to her, but I would definitely try to be get closer! Best of luck for the upcoming days dear! Hope you get every lovely opportunity in the future! And yes! TREAT!!! :D :D :D
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Time Out!
So...after quite a hiatus and hectic months, I guess I'm back to doing what I enjoy doing the most - writing! :)
These days, the feeling and atmosphere is very very pathetic. We have completed our exams and are now slogging away at training/project institutes while the other half of our friends are busy with long hours on the study table as they have their exams near sight! It is truly pathetic because for us because we are scattered here and there, with bleak chances to group up and have fun. But for those who are readily available are busy studying and hence, the moral is that the mornings go very hectic while the much anticipated evenings slog too much to fly by! But hey, its only a matter of a few days, so I am personally looking forward to it!
Why am I writing on such a lame topic? It's because I have duly reached my institute on time but my Professor, my mentor of the month, my project guide is yet to show his face at the reception! What to do? Nothing. Just wait.....wait....wait...wa...u get the point right? ;) Thank God that SINP has a very very lovable, cosy and most importantly, an air-conditioned (:D) library with free net access! So this is where I am at present doing this instead of fiddling with the chemicals in the lab!
But what I really feel while writing for this kinda topic is that hey...this too is a kind of time out for me! Okay, I am getting it even before the start of my day! But it still is! I have decided to relax, surf the net a bit....log on to facebook and try new applications and most importantly, write a few lines. I could have done numerous other things! There's this hot chick in the institute, who's right now laughing her time away at the canteen. I could have been with her. I could have taken a puff and a cup of tea! But I think this is what is giving me the current boost in the energy while at leisure!
Think about it! Sometimes we seem to run out of action with hell lot of time in hand. Sometimes, it just the opposite! So like, what to do? Manage time well and all that crap? I think NOT! I believe that leisure time is something that deserves attention to what we love doing the most, without taking much stress and stuff! Don't you think so? I mean, some people are born couch-potatoes! They love their hours in front of the idiot box! Some simple love to cuddle back into bed! Others may enjoy a game outside and so on and on and on......
But what the point is that whatever we do, we should enjoy it and after the event is over, the thought of having wasted your time on that should not come into play! What's the use of such a livingness then? Moreover, we often are guided as to do this in your free time, do that, manage this and that and so on and on... But I say bunk them out of your eardrums! Just follow your heart! That's the true way to enjoy life at a position where we all are today! So next time you have ample time in hand and you prefer to sleep it away, you being a sleep-a-holic, do not regret! Just be cool! Look at me! I am writing a blog at my project center simply waiting for my professor to come and dictate his instructions on me! I am cool and chilling out! Do it! You'll need it! Especially in this kinda heat!
These days, the feeling and atmosphere is very very pathetic. We have completed our exams and are now slogging away at training/project institutes while the other half of our friends are busy with long hours on the study table as they have their exams near sight! It is truly pathetic because for us because we are scattered here and there, with bleak chances to group up and have fun. But for those who are readily available are busy studying and hence, the moral is that the mornings go very hectic while the much anticipated evenings slog too much to fly by! But hey, its only a matter of a few days, so I am personally looking forward to it!
Why am I writing on such a lame topic? It's because I have duly reached my institute on time but my Professor, my mentor of the month, my project guide is yet to show his face at the reception! What to do? Nothing. Just wait.....wait....wait...wa...u get the point right? ;) Thank God that SINP has a very very lovable, cosy and most importantly, an air-conditioned (:D) library with free net access! So this is where I am at present doing this instead of fiddling with the chemicals in the lab!
But what I really feel while writing for this kinda topic is that hey...this too is a kind of time out for me! Okay, I am getting it even before the start of my day! But it still is! I have decided to relax, surf the net a bit....log on to facebook and try new applications and most importantly, write a few lines. I could have done numerous other things! There's this hot chick in the institute, who's right now laughing her time away at the canteen. I could have been with her. I could have taken a puff and a cup of tea! But I think this is what is giving me the current boost in the energy while at leisure!
Think about it! Sometimes we seem to run out of action with hell lot of time in hand. Sometimes, it just the opposite! So like, what to do? Manage time well and all that crap? I think NOT! I believe that leisure time is something that deserves attention to what we love doing the most, without taking much stress and stuff! Don't you think so? I mean, some people are born couch-potatoes! They love their hours in front of the idiot box! Some simple love to cuddle back into bed! Others may enjoy a game outside and so on and on and on......
But what the point is that whatever we do, we should enjoy it and after the event is over, the thought of having wasted your time on that should not come into play! What's the use of such a livingness then? Moreover, we often are guided as to do this in your free time, do that, manage this and that and so on and on... But I say bunk them out of your eardrums! Just follow your heart! That's the true way to enjoy life at a position where we all are today! So next time you have ample time in hand and you prefer to sleep it away, you being a sleep-a-holic, do not regret! Just be cool! Look at me! I am writing a blog at my project center simply waiting for my professor to come and dictate his instructions on me! I am cool and chilling out! Do it! You'll need it! Especially in this kinda heat!
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