Look Into My Eyes!

Feeling the chill all around,
Yet rejoicing a warm sensation having you bound!
I guess this is your charm....this is your soft sound,
That makes me and my world go round!

A touch so pure....
A stand stronger for sure,
A momentary glance at the most loveliest eyes...
A feeling to come all out, disclosing none as a guise!

Is it me or is it you?
That whenever you're around, I feel my world go blue,
That whenever you smile...the worlds seems to sparkle like a dew,
That whenever you come closer...an hour feels like minutes so few!

I guess its a feeling more divine...
A gesture of a heavenly sign!
You may enjoy the bits....or try to glance away!
But I'll only whisper saying "Come what may, I'll never sway!"
Looks may be humble, they may yet deceit,
But just remember...it's the eyes that never forfiet!
Moments like these may come and go...but they are immortal in the memories so wise!
Wanna see it? Simply look into my eyes!

(Another attempt to write in a bit romantic manner...for a someone splecial)!

Reel Drought!

I remember a few semesters back that there was a time when we all had to face severe cash crunches every now and then. This was not on any booze party or any kinda outing, but was due to certain number to visits to theaters like Navina, South City, Priya, Menoka and so on! The was between "to go or not to go" was simply ruled out as we ended up watching every possible movie that premiered on the weekends and moreover, the supply of cash definitely bowed to its demand from the booking counters! That was a time when Bollywood was truly an entertaining demon for all us college kids! Wonder where such days have gone?

The exams got over. So did other numerous commitments. It was time to simply relax and enjoy a few reels with popcorn and friends! The friends are all there....and so is the availability of popcorn and other secondary requirements! Even the cash is there! But alas! No movie worth spending a few bucks for!

2010 stated off pretty well. The theaters did draw huge crowds, and the crowds too were satisfied with their investments! But as the year drew to an end...the slog factor seemed to have risen to another level. For the past one month, movies are coming and going! There's not even an ounce of desire anywhere to go catch one! Of course there are certain exceptional ones that are truly worth watching, but for the past 3 weeks or so...this too seems to have dried up! All we do now is to watch Channel V, MTV and others, get fascinated by certain songs and videos, grow a weak desire to watch the movies but ultimately end up sighing after seeing the Sunday reviews! I guess...it is not only the supply of reels that has dried up but also our desire to rely on any director/actor as well!

The reason I am jotting this one down is because I can't take it any longer! My exams got over, and also the new semester has creeled in, but still no sight of a good watchable movie! I donno what has happened to the creative minds of our "so-called-industry-people", but they seriously do need some makeover. At least not to try their own ideas, they can still opt for a copy a=of any Hollywood remake and simply do justice to the original script! If not this, then I think it is time that we cast our own ideas on FB and let them know what we want and don't!

So I guess this is me.....hopelessly sitting home and doing other stuff (and mind you, it's damn tough for a movie buff like me!).....simply praying that at least the New Year will do some good to these Cinema People! If not, then I guess gathering the DVDs of Classic Hollywood films and watching them will be my only refuge! Wake up Bollywood! Please....

Nostalgia!

24th December.....Christmas Eve......a simple day at JU.....more importantly, a day where most people from the University plan their outings and celebrations for the new year week! My purpose for going to the college today was simple:
1. I wanted to meet all my seniors whose faces I had been missing for a long time!
2. I wanted to catch up with my close friends at JU, knowing that they had their convocation today!
3. I wanted my lunch, transport and all possible expenses to be covered by those beloved seniors! :P :D

So I got up late, wearily got ready and raced to the University...but this was slowly to find a slight gloom in the afternoon sun at the campus! But as the clock ticked further into the noon, the crowd density increased and so did the zeal among the public, both the graduating seniors as well the current students! Whatever be the reason for either party, the overall was simple : Seniors are back! Its party time....time to share a few laughs and memories with them...time to catch on old friends....time to enjoy the convocation of my beloved friends in JU...time to absorb all the possible time in the campus today!

The scenery switched from green to ORANGE! (Yes...that's the colour of the robes provided by the University...some hate it...even me, but hey....its a part of our heritage, so no comments on this one!) Coming back, it was an orange blanket on the campus today, which seemed to reflect all sorts of emotions. Emotions of love....emotions of friendship....expressions saying "I missed you goddamit!", and most importantly....expressions displaying another chance to relive campus life for those who have left it! Seeing the people blend in, sharing experiences with us and amongst themselves, the overall feeling was nostalgic! I know that I will be experiencing this pretty soon (with only 364 days to go), but imagining life at that point is something I simply cannot program my mind towards! I LOVED THE MOMENTS TODAY....I WILL MISS THEM THEN!

Time for my friends to get their first undergraduate degree! Watching them don the robes with awe....coming to the campus dressed in the most appealing traditional manner....glaring down the gallery to spot them walk across to get a hold their degree...I could only feel myself in their place! Some of them have wandered off in the quest of a fresh destiny....most have stayed in the campus continuing their education here....but seeing the eyes meeting once again, I felt that I was in a domain of my own, even though I hardly know a handful of them. Call it the aroma of our friendship or the desire to be there for each other, I guess the feeling of happiness and pride was mutual! I LOVED THE MOMENTS TODAY.....I FELT AS IF THEY WERE MY OWN!

Nostalgia again! I want this day to come soon for my very own self....but I am nostalgic about the scenario then! I want to share and feel the moments that others felt today....but I guess, I will be missing today even then! Call it serenity, call it stipulation...I guess I am in a state of a mixed feeling where today I saw my seniors exchange some expressions of relief and joy...while my friends exchanged their moment of pride with me! So here I am, in my college senior year....trying to imbibe the happiness of others today....feeling proud for the persons whom I care for from day 1 in my college...trying to extrapolate the memories to 24th December, 2011!

(Dedicated to all those who graduated today! Congrats Soumita and Priyanka! Prabudhdha, Pradyut, Chasa....happy to see you once again! Dhonaa....missed you loads!)

Moments of Silence!

A walk down the road....with the twisting lanes and crawling sidewalks, the conversations went on and off. At times she merely giggled! At times, I just chose to gaze at her. For some moments, she started to talk and I listened...and then a pause...time was for me to begin, but to my own amazement, i preferred to simply walk beside her and to listen to her (also sometimes stealing away a quick gaze at her eyes :D)! The day had come when I, a chatterbox from birth, voluntarily chose to stop talking and simply listen and enjoy the mood....to imbibe the silence blended with her presence....to absorb all the available evening lights reflecting off her eyes and glitter! All in all, I chose to take a moment of silence!

Then followed a brief phase of lag after so much waling. We chose to sit down on a short wall....simply following up of the conversations! Yet again, the silence surpassed the talking by high margin! The weather was chilly...but the essence was warm, the street lights were sharp....but the beams from her eyes were sharper. All in all, an evening spent for some purpose, but it ended up with me realizing a whole new side of me.....and truly, an enjoyable side!

For the people who know me, they can vouch for the fact that I truly can maintain a constant range on the decibel chart! But leaving them apart, the entire thing is very shocking that just the mere presence of a certain someone beside me can bring about such a change in the 'internal' me! Is this truly possible? Or was it just that I was a bit exhausted from all that walking? :P

Jokes apart...I have to say that even after spending the after-time thinking about this, I have no clue as to what made this happen! Was it her effect? Was it her herself? If so, why was she the only one to be able to do so? Questions questions all around, but not a sign of the answer fin....questions questions above and down...the answer maybe within! (well...this is an attempt of modify and express certain feeling by using a few line from "The Ancient Mariner" but hey....no funny comments here people!)

So I guess here I am....trying to do what I enjoy (write that is :D)...still trying to decipher the cause of such a change....and most importantly....trying to recollect every piece of memory of today's evening! Had a blast dear! ;) :P

(Dedicated to the person who made me realize this potential within me...and most importantly, for bearing my blabbering for all the days preceding this one!)

Can I Have An Encore?

A few more moments of frolic and fun…
A few more glimpses of the campus sun,
Some more measures of life’s ironies and puns…
A few more attempts at the deeds left undone!

Another year of sole academic tensions…
Another year of myriad “Bensons”
Another year of aimless sips at a cup of tea…
Another chance of following my heart everywhere, being just me!

One more glimpse at the seniors lurking around…
One more glimpse at the eyes of fresher’s…scared to a shape of round!
One more glimpse at our teachers talking to the walls…
One…just one more attempt to feel the fearless ability to rise after a fall!

At the onset of a new dawn…with dreams quite galore…
Excitement, anxiety and aggression are all that comes to my mind’s core,
But then again, I look back to relive the moments, both soothing and sore…
Simply to ask life : CAN I HAVE AN ENCORE??

(Dedicated to all those who are in their final years in their colleges and who have graduated out from them as well...)

Life!!!

Can we sum up saying that:

Living the moments,
Oscillating to and fro a basic social guideline,
Being responsible and respectable,
Spreading love and care,
Being loyal to what we do and who we are,
Trying to excel in what we do,
Being generous and humane,
Making great friends,
Respecting your parents,
Supporting and loving one special person,
Being humble at times of pride,
Being strong at times of despair,
Helping out people selflessly,

..... as LIFE?
(Probably the shortest I have written! The message is to rejubenate our ideas regarding the boon we all have received - our lives! Continue the list if you think I missed certain points!)

Fluctuating Moods!

At the inception of a year,
The earth looks a bit pale from the cold...with the spring ready to smear!
As time floats forward, with the dawn of sunlight quite near...
People start to enjoy and cheer.
But slowly and steadily, the smile fades into a glimpse of fear...
Solely regarding the hotter days yet to come...a phenomenon quite mere!

During the summers, people relent the heat.
They pray for the monsoons to arrive soon, hoping that the scorch they'll cheat!
And thus God answers them all...
Sending dark clouds and making the liquid relief fall...
But soon the mood changes quite swiftly,
It's the very relief they start to loath...which once they longed for so timidly!

Next follows prayers...hoping the clouds will stop and go!
Thus come the onset of autumn, making the monsoon seem our foe!
The heat comes back, the clouds scatter...
The sky seems fresh...ready for yet another makeover!
And thus sets in the winter days...
Promising a long dry spell of relief, "cold and dry" are the words it says!

But pretty soon, with the year end...
People get fed up of the cold, and seem to bend!
With rolling eyes, from the cold to heat,
They then want the sun to come back and make a feat!
And then again starts the very vicious loop,
Of the upcoming seasons, and man's ever-swinging mood!

We say that we are scorched,
We say that we are parched...
Some say we are drenched,
While others say we are iced!
But God looks down, and says just one line....
"My children, you are none, but simply that your minds have been torched!"!

Be Sincere...Not Serious!

To start with, this is a topic conceived by me at the dinner table, during a conversation with Dad. He just uttered these lines, and I am simply applying my ideas onto this one!

Honestly speaking, these words can best define my current mental status. I am in my final year, yet to get placed and I am simultaneously trying to crack through numerous off-stream exams...all in all...I am packed up! Maybe not always, but mentally...yes sir! Seeing this, my dad came up with this line...as an advice, which I am planning to follow to the very edge!

Literally speaking, these words may not appeal you at all! But once you go to the depth, their individual weights get multiplied to give an impressive overall. Frankly speaking, we all come to that stage of our lives when we have numerous things on our agenda! Some stay very focused and treat accordingly, but most of us tend to deviate subconsciously! Its like, even if we're aiming for a particular thing, unknowingly, we devote much of our memory space to another aspect, which may occupy a secondary position in our to-do list! The consequence may not be too harsh, but its just that the tension levels accelerate...with sometimes disastrous effects of both the primary and the secondary aspects! In order to avoid this....and also, in our further life, to avoid inculcating any form of anxiety, this is the motto to be followed!

What the line basically means is that we simply must perform, whatever we are supposed to perform in, very sincerely. While doing this, we must not think of the aftermath or the result and also, we must not get too emotionally attached with it - hence the ending "Not Serious"! The three dots in between the halves merely represent the vague line of disparity! Being Serious is good...being sincere is also good! They why the difference? This is merely thinking from the human mind point of view! In modern times, only a performer and not an actor can woo the audience! Similarly speaking, as an employer, everybody wishes to encounter graduates with not merely technical knowledge, but also a very good persona and charm! The reason : they are the fresh face of the company...and no one wants a stoical look, be it a man...be it an organization! Another fruitful example may be in terms of doctors! When we visit a doctor, we tend to expect a very serious, nerdy kind with the stethoscope! Just try to recollect the expression you had on your face when this expectation was overtaken by a more friendly, jolly doctor! Wasn't it able to bring out a smile, even when you were sick?

The whole point in discussing this thing is that I believe that we, as good natured, sincere students and being, actually are ignorant about the border between sincerity and seriousness! Being sincere means devoted to one's interest and work! Stop! Then try to look up the meaning in the dictionary for seriousness. It is the phenomenon of being emotionally overweight for a particular thing! Stop! Does the meanings strike a chord? Being serious no where mentions the need for dedication. Moreover, we all very well know that seriousness over long periods of time can elevate the agitations in our minds, which in turn affects our efficiency!

So people...lets be sincere! Not serious! Remember, sincerity brings a soothingness and devotion to our minds...Seriousness just makes us dull and boring! After all...the modern day trend is to be cool, funky and bright, right? ;) :D

I Miss You....

It hasn't been that long,
That you left us for a conquest of your own...for a dream quite daring,
But the meager gap seems endless...just like a vague song
Complete with beats, music and rhythm, but a composition quite jarring!

I may emphasize, I may elaborate,
But dear friend, be very sure, I will not exaggerate!
To insist on the loneness among us all...
To highlight on the loquacity affecting us all!
It seems, without you...
The vibe amongst us has burnt off like a flue!
But we still cherish one pertaining fact!
That the day will come when you are within us all...making our group still and intact!

I am proud of your ambition...
I am here to support your career's initiation!
But maybe its the time, maybe its our smiles...
That bind us so much so true,
To be able to think, almost at every instance, of you!

So dear friend, once again I would like to narrate...
I may emphasize, I may elaborate!
But trust me...I will not exaggerate!
Seeing the days gone by, and looking at the ones yet to come...
All I see is myself in queue,
Waiting for that smile eagerly, knowing that the days left...are few!
But even though the gap seems endless, it still is a song quite vague...
The beats, the music still continue....but to the heart, it seems like a plague!

(Dedicated to one of my most sweetest friends, Soumita....missing her presence in the daily melancholy of my college life!)

A Day To Remember....

Ever had a spring of events surfacing now and then, just within one particular day? Moreover, an apt question would be that ever had that kind of a day and you enjoyed every moment of it? Well...for me, today was such an experience.....truly a collection of moments which I, and all of my fellow friends would remember till the end!

A plan was earlier made to celebrate the placement of 14 of our batchmates...in a mega way! All was fixed, but just yesterday one of our "respected" professors (or rather a grizzly bear) called up and informed us about the class test due for today...with probably the shortest notice (of less than 16 hours) I've ever seen in my life. With the apprehension expanded the feeling of tension and dubious ways to manage the situation. Plans like inviting the concerned teacher to our celebrations, and the likes were made. Some were accepted, some rejected....but the ultimate one accepted was to talk to him straight-away by paying him a visit. So we locate his apartment and ring the bell....but all we got was his no-show attitude and a slight tone of anger from his side. Deciding not to poke the already poked bear, we scramble to our respective abodes...trying to study with whatever time we have left on our hands! Next day, as expected, he came with printed papers for the exam. We all knew tit-bits of the subject...so we decide to resort to teamwork for solving the paper and voila! We did give the exam in an unexpectedly good manner! :):)

So, happy with our round in the exam hall, next on the agenda was the buffet in Mainland China! But as per our routines, we had our projects scheduled today! And call it my luck, my own guide had other plans...specially for me and my project partner! But after a quick discussion and a slight twist with some reason, we trick our ways out of the labs and head on to our destination!

The first thing I noticed in the restaurant was the expression on the waiters' faces. All they day was an influx of 55 people....in various groups...slowly occupying the tables in all corners. They were glowing, imagining the bill amount probably, but they also were aware of the service they had to provide! But who cares? We hit the buffet tables in a flash....and in a crowded fashion! It seemed as though if the entire 5 star restaurant was converted into a mere college canteen - crowded tables, loud conversations....slangs all around...and most importantly, eating out of each other's plates! But man did we enjoy! It truly was a moment to savour! The only thing I felt disgusted about was that had it not been for the untimely scheduling of that wretched exam, I would not have forgotten about my camera! All these expressions could have stayed on my computer, but hey....I soon forgot about this when all the "khilli" started happening all around. I had been to this restaurant numerous times - sometimes with my family...others during some events...but all of them were a bit too formal! But today....it was like a group of hungry elites were suddenly exposed to the luxury of 5 star food and drinks! And the rest? Well, I guess you can easily visualize the situations! :D

Next, the scene was a bit too usual. Inflated belly's, with an inability to walk properly...and most importantly...the infection of the afternoon slumber phenomenon! So some of decided to go home and relax. Others, like us, decided to enjoy the cool breeze of the AC of the mall and chat our time by. But as the evening approached, some of us suddenly remembered the other commitment we had for the evening - Spanish class! With a dire urge....and loathsome footsteps, we set on for the short journey, but then what happened was probably the best thing in the entire day! Now, we have our classes in RKM, which is known for discipline and strictness. In college, we bunk every now and then, but today we bluffed RKM as well! We had a submission (about which we all had forgotten) and so, we went a tad earlier, and completed the assignment ( simply by copying from others :P) and then, suddenly decided to bunk the class. Thus came our teacher, and the excuse we came up with was that there was an extremely important exam scheduled for the next day, and that we should be permitted to leave. Seeing our sincerity (by coming solely to submit the assignment)and our "frankness", our teacher was truly impressed. She even granted us our attendance for today! And after that : destination Cafe Coffee Day! :D

Today was a day, where we really were tested to the second! We came out with utter grandiose and more importantly, we also executed out plans for the day. An entire day with friends, food and drinks! All in all....a day to remember. I would say my batchmates reading this would agree to this to the detail, but now...as the clock ticks closer to the end of the day...I doubt the encore of this experience, but hey...I guess moments like this should be rare..as it is then when they will retain their sweetness, wouldn't it? So cheers to the guys who made this treat possible, cheers to the guys with whom we cracked todays paper and finally, cheers to my lovely group for making the finale another grand experience!

Counting the Days By......

Finally....after almost a year....I am writing my beloved form of literature - poetry!
(Well....this is an ode to my own college life....till now! It's not over yet, but in the final year...I just realize everyday that with the moments, the countdown just ticks on...!)

High school ended with a bang...
And after chivalrous attempts in various exams, college life rang!
The fear of adjusting to a place totally new,
The excitement of socializing in an environment which I hardly knew!
Though it was the onset of my career, it did bother me at times quite few,
But the irony was that I was more concerned with "ragging"...at times, my nails, I did chew!

The life kicked off, injecting a peculiar zeal in me,
Though I was right about the ragging, but after a few days...it felt as good as it could ever be!
Following the tradition, we loathed more on the grounds and were less "roomed"...
And slowly, I had made a group of my own...it was friendship all around that loomed!
Mixing with people, having a new era of fun...life very much bloomed!
Though there was a slight fear of having my academics being doomed,
But I guess it was the people around me...who helped me back with my academics, with my motivations getting zoomed!

At times, it was quite hectic...with fun being kept at bay!
At times, it was the other way round...from academics we swayed!
At times, it was laughter quite sheer,
At times, it was a mundane atmosphere, with heated conversations and acts of despair!
The days just swept by, and time did steer...
And in no time, we became sophomores...a great time to cheer! ;) :D
The dawn of seniority, a feeling which was very near...
And with the advent of our juniors...the feeling boosted, no more than less mere!
The days swept by, the time did steer...
At that point, life was full of fun, frolic and large bottles of beer!

We grew older, our minds altered in their notions,
Maturity, discipline and responsibility started growing in quantized denominations!
The load of academics was now in a rapid motion...
But our interests grew anew, with each cycle of academic rotation!
Trainings, designs and labs were at full pace...
Slowly but steadily, we accelerated in the worldly race!
But the friendship all around, made sure that, in vain, we did not chase...
It revealed certain aspects of professionalism...slowly solving the career maze!
The days swept by, the time did steer...
At that point, we were in a bit too haste...to realize our career aims, which to us, were quite dear!

The list of movies started to grow,
With the bunking rate getting elevated, simultaneously, to an upper row!
But hell, we did enjoy each moment, with a fresh seed to sow...
Friendship grew and so did its loving load, quite a heavy, but benevolent one, to tow!
New domains were discovered...
With social and professional elements being sown and recovered!
Life was full of joy and care...
But at times, vanity and anxiety too prevailed...with recognitions quite rare!
But everything was an experience, a part of the friendship lair...
A bit of sugar...a pinch of salt, that's what makes life fair!
Days swept by, the time did steer...
Those were the moments that made us live live, at every gear!

At times like now, with just another year...
I feel like having an encore, another hear!
There are moments I would love to cherish for one more time,
There are actions I would want to alter, certain others to mime!
Things I would like to enjoy, for the same price and dime....
But like life, time hasn't yet learnt to rhyme!
It's not that moving on is a factor to lament,
In fact, its an opportunity to grow, to become a glow with a renewed filament!
But these are the days...these are the moments that will remain for eternity,
I am just too glad that I have yet another year to add to them, moments of flaw, joy and serenity!
Right now, I try to live as per the day...
Storing every in possible memory space as I can, as I may!
But counting the days by,
I realize that every second gone, is as unreachable as a peak so high!
But I guess its their essence so mere...
That will rejuvenate the days to come, the memories flashing back quite clear!
Days sweep by, the time does steer....
With just a year left ahead of me, with the end so near...
I just wish that I could have the knob of time...just to slow it down, if not veer,
Simply counting the days by...I wish I could have the moments back and that my words were like that of a seer!

Enough Is Enough! I'm On A Diet From Now!

Before going into this article, just ask yourself that have you ever felt the need for going on a diet, very very badly? Or did you ever feel that your fat levels are spiraling out of control? If yes, then this one's for you....if not, then also you'll enjoy this! :D

The world is full of different kinds of people, at every corner. But of all the classifications, we can categorize them all into two basic ones - one's who love to eat and the others who are not so bothered about food! It is usually the first type of people who usually grunt about having weight issues, fat problems and stuff. Okay, I wouldn't lie....I too was practically one of them, but ion recent days, certain improvisations have been enacted upon by me, about which, I'll come to later. But coming back, all I want to say is that have we really given a thought as to basically why we ever grunt?

Imagine a situation where there are loads of goodies on the table, and you're damn hungry! For people like me, we would literally jump at almost everything that appeals to the tongue, without even thinking about the calorie intake shit! But do we really care about all those? I think not! One of the basic human nature trait is related to the tongue - the appeal and the related food! We may even turn up greedy and end up eating more than that which is permissible, but hey, we do enjoy the meals right? I have certain friends who're mad about certain dishes, and can eat well too! I also have some friends who are not that bothered about the food. They simply want to nibble and taste! I cannot understand them about this section, honestly, but I guess its their mode of enjoying the meal! But my point is something circling this fatness factor and the associated grunt! Maybe it is so that you may eat a lot and everything gets visibly added onto your body, or it may so happen the other way round! Another factor may so happen that you may eat a lot, and at the same time, there's no physical change regarding you! But whatever be the observation, people do have certain notions regarding their dietary lifestyles.

I am a bit fat! It is because whatever I eat gets added to my body mass. At times, I feel like so irritated that I think of scrapping all the nice dishes from my chart, and going on a strict diet! But...the very next moment, I end up with a slice of ice-cream in my hands! Sometimes, I feel like rushing to the gym and spend a vigorous hour or two over there. But I guess I'm too lazy to continue this ordeal! :D I mean, it involves a hell lot of physical labour...the genes of which I did not inherit! Neither the mentality! But all in all...I am proud that I can eat well and can make any of my friend's mom very happy, provided they invite me over to their place! :D But sometimes, I do feel the urge of the need to reduce my waistline by a few inches! I do try some actions regarding this matter, but everytime, I end up consuming more than what I burn!

So people, all I want to say is that don't dwell on this topic line! Simply follow your heart! If you want to have something nice, go for it! If you want another one, and your pocket permits you do to so, do it! Don't think about this weight gain shit! Because one fine day, the doc will definitely ban some or the other items from your daily menu list, and at that time, don't sit and sigh! Just try to eat right...the thing which I'm doing right now! Every inch will fall into line! But hey, if you want a six-pack or something, or a model like figure....then don't follow these lines! What I'm talking about here is a healthy, normal, average figure! So just remember...eat well, eat as per your heart...and just smile! That's what will keep you in shape both physically and mentally!

Been a Long Time....

In our lives we meet many people, but out of that entire crowd, few are able to carve a niche in our minds. Well, this is regarding to something like that, with my own life. About a person who had faded long back, but is suddenly back with a bang after 9 years!

So...certain things happened in our school days which led to feud between us. Though she considered them pretty sweet and always giggled with an awe, but hell did she get angry. And the worst part - we never had a chance to develop our friendship back then. Days passes with simple talks and regular fights during the school days and a time came when I had to migrate to another place (Dad changed the job you see)! But what touched me back then was that she confessed of having shed a drop of two from her tear gland primarily because I was leaving. This was a bit unexpected, yet anticipated! :D

Now I had left the city, in fact the country but certain things always happened which made me think of her. Okay, this is where I have to mention the fact. The feud started because I had proposed her, and well.....we were kids back then, so I guess neither one of us had the maturity to handle it well. My actions we explainable, and so was her anger! But hey, things happen in childhood, right? But coming back, I just missed having a simple chat with her...just to maintain the right chord on the friendship tone!

Days turned into months, and months into years. I guess we had ourselves in our minds, but that was in the subconscious level! As individuals, we had moved on in our lives, with practically no information about each other. But one fine day.....after a period of 9 whole years, we finally bump into each other on a social networking site! I still remember the day, about how giddy and happy I was, but I guess I cannot explain myself very clearly. But anyways, I was elated (that's the basic point!). But I was a bit reluctant at the early stages because I had remembered our last fight very clearly ( a hung up phone situation :D). But after a few days, I realized that truly it was now or never. So I ask for her number, and a few minuted past, we are happily recollecting our past on the phone! :)

What touched me was that she remembered almost everything and was taking it sportingly. What made me happy was the conversation about our past life, the goof ups, the childish pranks and stuff! But what really mattered to me was that I was right about us having a chance to develop a smooth friendship! :) The chatting went on and on, till she started feeling so sleepy (now this trait hasn't changed pretty much in the entire 9 years!) that her words started overlapping! But all in all, a good enjoyable hour on the phone!

This is no message blog, but at the very same moment it is! Just think for a moment. If you have a number in your contact list with whom you haven't had a conversation in years, its high time to give a call (Try the 30p night calling plan people) and to start afresh! Its never too early, never too late for any kind of friendship, but one thing you have to be pretty sure of...and that is that you must not ever create a situation of "It's been a long time..." and then repent for not having acted towards it earlier! Friendship Rocks! And thus, this is dedicated to the girl I'm talking about for the last few lines - Dilpreet! :) (Missed you yaar!)

First Day of Class... :D

There's always a first day of any particular class in our lives, which we may enjoy, loath or feel any other such feeling that makes us happy! But the one I'm talking about here is the first day of our Spanish Class at RKM Golpark...the one for whose admission we had to undergo a drenching situation for several hours from the morning on one particular date (check the previous blog "Wet Dedication"). I was talking sincerely about our dedication to education in that one, right? So I guess, this is what is our "dedication"! :D

We all went from different directions to meet up at the front gate, at the alloted time, a few minutes before the class timings. We receive an unexpected shock from one of our friends - she had forgotten the entry pass itself!!! :P Now, this is nothing too big but the point which is to be noted is coming as you go on reading.

We simply stare at each other and keep on thinking how to manage the situation. Now, we got our admission as a full gang, but only three of us came today for the classes. Others were busy in their own manner ( ;) :D). Now, I had a slight nudge in my mind which told me to utter the following words - "Hmmm....since the entry to the institute is not at all possible, lets go hang around somewhere, have some coffee and fun!" But instead, this comes out - "Okay Okay, I have my earlier class ID card with me. Just flip it in front of the guards, they won't notice!". I don't know how the hell these came out from MY mouth, but they did! One of my close friends, whose mentality is typically the same as mine, just stared at me in a certain disbelief! She too had that same thought going on, but I think she was hesitant enough. But thank God she spoke out her mind...and then what? I simply supported the notion of going to a cafe instead of the boring, steaming sauna-type Spanish Classroom. :P

Numerous snapshots of various cafes kept on flickering in our minds. Now the third person was a bit reluctant, but I guess she too got carried away....I mean c'on, these kind of notions are truly a bit contagious provided you are a fun loving person! So coming back...we started walking, trying to zero in on the perfect location! One of us...comes up with a particular hang out spot and we all agree! But that moment was a bit short lived! We go there, smartly get seated, ordering for a menu card and voila! We simply find ourselves in a high "cash-crunch" situation! So what to do? We get the hell outta there, and go to our original hang out cafe : CCD. So finally....we get to choose some of the cheap items from the menu cards and end up spending the entire class period in the coffee shop! It was fun, I have to admit! Sometimes, the thought of bunking the class did bother us, but what the f*ck! We have the right to bunk and enjoy, don't we? :D :D

So, the point of writing this article is that be serious to your studies and educational commitments people....the way we are. Of course we just bunked this class (maybe we'll do the same next day as well :P), but hey....we did catch on of our friends to have a glance at the notes. Conclusion - we may be bunkers, but we ARE SINCERE! That's the whole point! So just go out and bunk! I hope all the college people will definitely agree with me. Right?

My Statue Friend!!

(Dedicated to one of my best friends in the entire world...a person with whom I can share anything and everything...a being whose radiant smile brings a smile on my face as well...and most importantly, my TDN partner :D)

There is practically no reason as such of writing this blog, but still...I want to try out something out of daily experiences. And moreover, I'm tired of writing usual Orkut testimonials to this lady (and so is she receiving them), so I thought of doing something new! Here it goes.

2007 - 2008: We are all scared of our ragging period and so, we skip the faculty sections and try to socialize into the arts group simply to get some peace, away from our seniors. So, I meet this girl on the very first day, but it was just a usual day, with simple chats and introductory conversations with small and simple simples being exchanged. Few days later, we share an awesome conversation with hearty laughs and suddenly, I ask her for her number. Man, I got the most suspicious look of my life from her, but it was a bit funny! Anyways, she trusts me and gives me her number and then started the childish sms stuff regarding the radio songs being played, about our assignments and stuff. Days went on and on like this, with regular meetings and discourses. The pujas arrived, and we guys did meet (and what an important meeting it was right? ;)) and had fun. I shifted to my grandmom's place in the northern part of the city and then followed a trait which continued for days together : night conversations on the phone...and quite long ones! :D With this also started out fights and sways, but hey...it was a lovely year!

2008 - 2009: We became sophomores and a lot of things started changing. The intimacy grew more mature, with less childish stuff, more fights and natural reactions and expectations! But man did we guys fight. It was like on an average basis of 3 fights a month. And mind you, they were big ones! This year, however, the plans started becoming more frank with regular outings, pujas being spent more with the group and most importantly, the call rates started becoming more matured! A year with complete twists and turns, especially with a certain event which shocked her to life at the end of it! (right? ;) :D)

2009 - 2010: So now, they are the final year students and we are in our 3rd year engineering course! Studies, assignments and hell lotta stuff started increasing in their intensity, but simultaneously another stand of events started taking place - eat-outs, hangouts in malls, movies, outings, etc etc. But this time...one thing is worth mentioning, and that is our common pact of individuality and practical approach (diplomacy as we would call it), just to de-errorise out last years "fighting" experiences. We were and still are very very successful! But whatever be the moments, all in all...another great year worth mentioning!

The present is of course still in its developmental part. But the main reason I am writing all this is simply to jot down certain traits of this friendship. We fought like hell, but we stood still. There was a time when I gave her a shock of her lifetime owing to certain emotional things in me, but we still stood still together. We laughed and cared for each other, and most importantly, sometimes even stood for each other. Times were there when she used to surprise me by her antics and hidden talents (especially certain terminologies she still uses from her childhood days), and sometimes I do that to her. The only difference between us is that she's a bit reserved with her feelings, and I am normally expressive as usual! The what the hell, our mental and emotional match still stands still.

Certain times were there when I had to coach her regarding certain aspects of life, but to be honest, I got to learn from her more. Be it in any field, I always give her example to others. And most important aspect of her which I adore....her ability to dance with class!

Okay, if she ever reads this...all of this would sound to her like a big bluff or exaggeration. But if that's the case, sorry sweetheart, you have to believe me...there;s no proof as such. I just wish that in the days to come beyond 2011, we will all interact in the same manner as we do now. So to sign off...loads of hugs and kisses dear. :)

Necessary Fights!

Everyone has had their share of fights in their life. Be it with one's girlfriend, one's friend, one's family member or any other concerned person, we always fight with someone upon being cheated, hurt and all such kinds of reasons. The reasons may vary from cheap to very silly ones, but everyone reacts to situations like these in their own manner. Some may simply pass it on with time, with a mum face, others act, or rather overact, and some may even end up in a fist fight. It all depends with whom we fight and how bad the reason it. But I am gonna talk about those kinda fights which we may run into with our loved ones, for a reason range of silly to misunderstandings (obvious as fights relating cheating and sore stuff like that never end up in a good manner). All in all....fights which have a 99.9% probability of ending in warm vibes! :) :P

So, remember a time you ended up having a duel with a friend and simply promising each other not to show their faces, while swearing at them? Or the time you had a lovely argument with your love and simply did not contact him/her for the next few days, while anxiously waiting for the either one to respond? Sounds quite common right? Well, these things are indeed too common to cautiously avoid. And you know what? They shouldn't be avoided as well!! Confused? Well, let me tell you why.

Ever thought about the aftermath of a fight? How would you describe it? Lame? Awkward? Or something like this? I would say that that moment is one of the best moments in your friendship. Just consider a case when you haven't been talking to one of your good friends for a really long time. It doesn't matter who initiates the talk first, but while you are sorting things out, your emotions come face to face. These are the moments when you can get to know your friend more closer than any other opportunity. And now comes the best part - the final sorry! When things are sorted, and the next time you guys meet or talk, just try to notice the emotions around. Within yourself, you would feel a surge of energy simply to meet and talk to your loved friend, and same's the case on the other side of the bank. You talk like never before, share instances you can come up with at that moment - all in all, you guys share a rocking laughter! Or say another situation when you have hurt someone or you get hurt. If the guilty person apologizes after realizing her mistake, I agree that there's a chance that you might be so pissed off that you wouldn't even bother to care! But what about the moment that comes a few ticks of the clock later? Don't you miss your friend and his antics? Those very same antics which might have been the cause of the fight? And then comes a feeling from within to completely forget the matter, and to resume the relation with a new vibe and beat! Don't you enjoy that moment either? Or don't you at least end the call with a smile on your face?

Fights have a definition as to the inevitable sources of anxious feelings within people which give rise to a new platform for a better bonding after a period of time - at least this is the conception to me. I have had a hell lotta fights with my friends and those reading this article will remember certain sore one's after reading this line, but hey...the friendship does survive and we people grow to be able to laugh at those tensing moments! This is the way we all live on. I have also met many people in my life who simply run away from sorting a fight simply because they feel the need of peace. That's their way of responding, but the common part in every case is that we do forget those moments, overcome by our love and bond strength of the friendship and move on! This is what is to be cherished. I am not saying that next time you feel the urge to strengthen you relation, simply walk up to the person and start a fight! But hey, if you experience one, remember to control your anger and just keep in mind that sunshine's a stone's throw away!

The entire reason for writing all these lines is that I have had a big fight with one of my sweet buddies! I miss her like hell, but still....I am simply waiting for the sun to rise again! I know it'll happen, but am just waiting. I don't know whether she'll ever look at this post or not, the main reason being that she's not into this blogging and stuff, but this is just a way to express myself that "Dear, I still do care, and I miss you." So people, just try not to fight ugly! But if you fight, do remember to enjoy the aftermath! ;)

True Love : Myth or Fact?

(This is dedicated to all those lovers I know who are rocking in their relationships and for those, who are yet to find one...all in all...dedicated to all my close friends and people I know :P)

Okay, the main reason I am writing this blog is because I got the glimpse of this topic while having a regular conversation with one of my friends (female of course, with guys you simply cannot say all this).

Ever had a relationship which started having butterflies all around in the beginning and then ends up with a gloomy outlook after a period? Don't get shocked and stuff on seeing this question because this does happen!! And if you say it doesn't then fuck off, either you are not serious into your relation or you are lying! And don't even act as though this kinda thing doesn't exist!

Just think for a while. In today's practical world, when you fall into a relationship, isn't it true that you develop a sense of giddiness whenever you see your partner in person? You do! There's like this butterfly effect around everywhere (you can only notice these things when you are into a SERIOUS relation) and the world seems so nice! Even the things you hated the most doesn't bother you anymore. But take the scene to say...a year...or two years further. Is it still the same? Just think it over.

First of all, what is this true love? I agree that its a hypothetical conception, with numerous definitions, varying according to the mind of every individual, but on a general basis...I believe that its a situation where after meeting a particular person, you cannot think of anybody else, you listen, act and respond according to her/him (not loosing your own identity simultaneously) and even if things go bad, you cannot feel for any other person in the same manner as before! Isn't it bull-shit??? First of all....Love is love. No such thing as "True" Love. Then what is "False" Love? But jokes apart, does these things really exist?

I feel that humans have an inherent nature, which either they have in them from birth or they inculcate within them as per situations. This nature is called a habit! You tend to generate habits, which may either be bad or good! Simple! Imagine having opened a new account in a social networking site. You are very excited about it! You meet this one person, with the same mentality, and you guys spend endless hours chatting on the net. This continues for days in days out. At first you enjoy it very much. Then, after a particular period of time what happens? Everytime you sit in front of the computer, you check whether, he/she is online or not! Same is the thing on the other end. What will yo call this phenomenon in its most practical definition? Feelings for a chat friend? We all know how close chat friends can become (with certain exceptions in my case), right? Take another example. Say for example you have a very close friend, with whom you can share instances of all limits. You do this almost regularly. Suppose, for some reasons, that person is unable to receive the call or reply to your sms. Don't you think you will feel anxious as to why she/he is not answering you? At least to know the reason? Okay, now this may seem as to your love for your friend and or the about the enjoyment involved in that conversation, but still.....would you still call it something else, other that a good habit, that you enjoy? Just think!

The main thing I am trying to relay here is that there's no vivid conception as to a true love. You can love somebody, a friend or any other person but how would you classify it as true? I am not against relations or feelings, but the mere thing is that don't cross the board while you are into it. Be yourself and don't mingle your existing relation or a forthcoming relation in search of this true love! There can be trust, there can be affection and care, but do we ever cross our limits so much that we end up in a mud-pile, while trying to perform the duty of true love? If you ever feel doing something out of the box for anyone, its your own affection and nature for that person. You maybe in love, not in true love! C'on people, get real!

Well..so much so...this is my conception. If anyone thinks contradictory to all this, your are free to post comments. Do let me know! I maybe wrong, I maybe right....but still, I feel I am 80% right! :D :P :D

Wet Dedication!

Okay. first of all...no funny ideas upon reading the title! It's simply the literal description of an experience, which I and my friends had to go through today.

Have you ever given a thought as to how dedicated are you towards education and knowledge? I mean, we all stay up and study late at night, but thats on the eve of the exams. I am also not talking about certain people's abilities to go home, sincerely go through whatever shit they have been taught on that day, and come prepared the next day for more shit! They are not normal, but I am talking about people who enjoy life, have fun with friends, go on dates and stuff and most importantly, come back home and sit down for a brief interaction with books, just to be in touch! Honestly, I am talking about people like me! :D But coming back to the topic, what will you answer if asked that what is the extent that you will go to for education, which may be in or out of your course, or something that may be important to you just for the inclination factor? Well, for us, we got our answer today!

RKM Institute of Languages is a well known institute among people who like to do communicative language courses. Today, a bunch of us planned to get admission into the Spanish classes. Maybe to nurture our literal needs or simply to watch and understand Kites and Ricky Martin's songs, but whatever be the bloody reason, we opted to go and get the education! So we all reach our destination at 7 am in the morning, just to stand ahead of the line, and all we find is an irritating downpour!

Okay, let me tell you at this moment that for quite some days, Kolkata was not at all receiving its share of rains the way it does. So we were a bit sure that the morning sky will be cloudy, but will not pee down! But it seems THAKUR RAMKRISHNA had his own way of greeting us by sending this awesome and soothing, yet irritating rain for two whole hours!!! I mean it was as though the clouds were simply waiting for us people to gather and get drenched! The worry was not our clothes and shoes (and hair for one particular friend :D), but it was the documents were carrying in our bags!

So we try and nudge each other around, gathering in pairs under the umbrellas. But then the rain intensity saturates to such a level, that we were forced to bunk our envied line positions and seek covers. Now let me tell you, the institution security people are very generous. They thought that instead of letting us people in, it will be better to get wet and "clean" ourselves before entering this pious domain! As if we came directly from our beds!! But still, their dedication was to be praised by the institution and cursed by us! But all the very same, we seek another refuge, get bored and decide to nurture our raging belly's and end up freezing and squandering in a nearby cafe! We come back again to the line, only to find the rain more intense and the crowd more furious!

But whatever we did, we did not sway from our thirst of Spanish knowledge! We stayed there, dripping from head to toe in the rain, but we didn't move! Next the gates finally opened. I thought of organizing a stampede and running those generous guards over, but I guess we were too happy to go in than to do anything of that sort. So we complete our admission procedure, with just one more bump in the road and it was the non-acceptance of the much scammed Rs. 500 noted by the officials. So the search for change started, and it was really funny to see 70 odd people do it, simultaneously, in their own manner. But we finally overcome this factor and we get admitted into the Spanish Batch! Out we come of the institute and voila! The rains gone! :D

All I want to share in this section is that have you ever seen such instances when you are forced to prove your dedication for the love and lust (:P) for education? If not, I guess we are indeed lucky! Even though we feel terrible of the entire thought, but hey, we did it no. So go ahead! Face the worst hurdles and prove this point! Show your devotion and dedication towards education! Just see to it that if you sense it is gonna be a "wet" one, don't repeat my mistake, simply wear slippers and take an umbrella!

Need A Hug?

Have you ever had that feeling of getting frenzy and confused while selecting a lovely gift for an equally lovely friend? Have you ever had that feeling of getting literally "lost" in a gift shop, unable to decide whether to focus on budget or the type of gift? All in all, are you a loser in selecting gifts? If yes, I think you and I are on the same platform buddy!! :)

In today's world of versatile malls, a gift shop is what I feel a place to get lost into. You can just gaze on numerous items, that may or may not fit your criteria of a gift, but they allure you simply because it has been promoted quite efficiently. And the worse part, when it comes to beautiful ladies, you really have to think of the pros-&-cons of the entire gifting process. Okay, this is where I must admit that I do have a lot of female friends to depend on and I am writing this because every-time I feel like rewarding them for something special in their lives, I get into a REAL dilemma! But hey, I personally believe that a gift with a personal touch is something that goes easy on the pocket (:D), touches and pierces the heart more effectively, and the best part : you do not have to worry about the pros-cons at all! Because the gift I am talking about here is a TIGHT HUG!

You ever realize that if somebody comes and compliments you with a tight hug, you actually feel on top of the world subconsciously? I mean of course if its a hug from an opposite sex human, it would feel nice :D ;), but hey, just feel the emotion! From who-ever it is coming from. This kind of a gesture is a sole way to commute a thousand sentences into an act of seconds, to depict the affection in one's heart in its purest form and most importantly, it's a gift which can be returned without offending the rewarder!!!

Just imagine! You are feeling low and sitting alone. Along comes a friend and after seeing your condition, gives you tight hug and comforts you by holding you wrapped in his arms. Can you imagine the strength this sole act of care can give you? Or say another situation where you come to know of a happening that shoots up your level of elation so high, that you see your good friend coming, and even before saying anything, you hug her tightly! Seeing the emotion in you, don't you think she too will be equally happy? Of course after you tell her the reason, she'll return the hug back, and then? Just try to visualize the laughs that will be shared? Or say another scenario when you visit an old friend after a hell lot of time and you people hug each other! So soothing right?

All I am saying is that hugging is the purest act of gesture where you can convey the fact that "Yes you fool! I am worried and I do care for you!". Its just a non-verbal mode of expression. Did you know that 70% of all human interactions occur by visual emotional expressions and acts? This is just one of them! I am not saying that buying gifts, spending some money is a crime! But only this that do not ogle over materialistic articles so much that these emotional gestures loose their fragrance! Just remember, things, articles and stuff fade away with time! Both in their appeal and from our memories, but simple acts like these remain for a lifetime! I think you will agree with me right? So just after reading thing blog, I would say the best thing you can do is to go meet our dearest friend, call him/her up or simply text them (of course, you have the unlimited SMS promo rt?) simply to send them a virtual/real hug saying you care! Just see what happens next! :D :)

Why So Loud??

Ever had this experience of enjoying a calm ride in any transportation mean and then suddenly, your ears get back to the tuning of the noisy atmosphere simply because a person blabbers around you, pitching high on the decibel meter? Well, this may not look so surprising or an event to be shared about, but believe me, when you are drowned into your thoughts while say riding an AC bus, or simply dozing off for a while and you get exposed to something like this, you are bound to get angry!! And you know what makes you feel more irritated? It's upon seeing that loud-mouth guy, soaring across his noise level, having a goddamn earphone plugged into his ears!! Now that's irritating!

I had gone to receive a very dear friend of mine at the airport. After dropping her near her home, I was lucky enough to catch a Volvo Bus, as the heat was killing me! So I get on-board, find myself a nice, cosy seat with the AC on full blast. The distance was a bit long, so I thought of having a nice little nap as the day was quite hectic! But suddenly, out of nowhere come a shout " Dada, ticket the deben! Airport theke Rash Behari! Are Dada, ticket ta kaato! Taratari Dada, Taratari" (The gy simply wanted to buy the ticket). The shout was enough to dazzle every other passenger, and since he was just behind me, I thought of giving that son-of-a-bitch a dirty look! But you know what? I was simply annoyed even further! He was listening to the songs on hid pod, probably with full volume on as even I could hear the slight beats, and the earplugs were typically jammed into his ears! I donno whether this was his idea of looking cool, but I would say, he should have chosen a better place to listen to his tunes! Rather, at least at a better, compromising volume level!

Now I admit, I too sometimes listen in a similar fashion, out on the streets but I do make sure of one thing, that is to say the words in a normal tone. I mean, I am a sane person. Neither am I deaf! Why the hell should I have to verify to what I am saying my simply hearing the words that are coming out of my mouth, while my earphones are jammed in?? I know that sometimes, it is cool to simply roam around with earphones, but hey, shouldn't our simultaneous actions be normal as well? This is what drives me crazy and this is what drove me nuts on the bus! And guess what? I wasn't alone! Others too showed an eye movement of disgrace! But this mot**r f*c*r simply sat back into his seat, as calm as ever, looking as though the music was literally flowing through his deaf veins!!! But hold on, this was just the beginning! After a few mins, when his stop was arriving, he yelled out loud " DADA, ESHEGECHE?? OOO DADA, BOLONA, ESHEGECHE! NA ELE JANIYO! NAMTE HBE KINTU!!" (he just wanted to enquire whether his destination had come or not with the conductor, instructing him to inform). And this one, even louder!!! The irritating part is that he simply wouldn't allow a break or a pause within his sentences!

I don't know whether you would support me in this article or not, but goddamn, I was pissed off! Like hell! I mean not only is he a shame to our generation, trying to be cool, simply giving th elders to offend out actions even more, but also a loud guy! I myself am pretty loud, but I know the places when I should control my decibel meter. Don't know when these guys will understand!

Fluctuating Decisions!

Are you a chain smoker? Are you like a person who spends a large proportion of his money on cigarette packets and puffs? Are you also that person who loathes this addiction every single day, taking an oath to drive it out of your life, almost on a daily basis? Are you that person who, after so many decisions to quit smoking and pressures from the environment around you, unable to do so? Well, glad to have found you buddy!!!!! You are just like me then! :D :D

Ever had that mixed feeling of waking up to decide you are gonna quit the butt, but that very same evening, you end up puffing almost a packet? Believe me its bad! I mean, not exactly bad, but the feeling too is very mixed. So mixed, that you can't figure out whether its good or bad, but since the whole concept of smoking is bad, I'll take it to be bad!

Today, I was a bit down with fever. Its gone now, but the ache in the throat still remains, rendering me a bit "gloomy". During the day, I tried smoking a cigarette but it felt awful. I decided "It's high time! I will quit it permanently today!". In the afternoon, my mom accompanied me to the Doctor. But this guy and his antics was what really pissed me off! My mom usually complains about my habit to every person she can, and likewise did the same in front of this guy! Now after the check up, he takes us to his lounge for a cup of tea! And what do I see the first thing I enter the room? A large overflowing ashtray and a pack of cigarettes beside it. This guy lights up one, smokes while he sips away his tea and admits to being a chain smoker himself! So far so good, but next comes the hilarious part! He RECOMMENDS me to quit the butt, why? Because guys like him were fooled by this addiction back then, and he wants us to stay away from it!!!! I mean, here I was, looking at another chain smoker, advising another chain smoker to quit the butt! I do not challenge his competency, or his personal comments, but the least he could have done is to at least make me believe that he's not one of us! Maybe, I could have followed his advice a bit more rigidly! Now you tell me, can I ever take that guy seriously in my life?????

I just have one question! I know that at the end of the day, we are on the wrong side, and must hastily move towards the non-smoking life, but if these kind of things happen to you now and then, can you even think about quitting seriously???? I mean, I don't know about you guys, but my experiences have all been so much so similar to this incident! This includes my own dad, my elder bro! Man, I don't know if this is truly my bad luck, but how the hell am I supposed to make someone my idol towards quitting the butt? Some days later, that guy too turns up to be a smoker!!

I guess the best way is to really fork the idea out of your head, and not depend on some inspiration. But isn't having an inspiration far more effective? This is why I am really stuck up! So people, any suggestions, always welcome. Read and suggest, I'll just be back after a light! :D :P :D

Smiles!

The most novel yet deceptive expression even to be seen on a human face - SMILE! Yes, its true! But the context I am referring to here, today, is regarding the expression of pure happiness, the one that emerges after a long period from one's heart! That was the expression today on the four faces that chatted for a long time in a mall.

Few days ago, the plan was simply to meet up, comprising just two people, to discuss certain topics for an upcoming not-so-precious examination. But as we are good students (:P :D), we decided to take every aspect seriously. The venue was debated upon, the timing was fixed.

Few moments later, both had a certain wish in their minds - to call up whoever was available on that day to simply have a good time (as we knew how much we will study ;) :D). So the calls were made, text messages were sent. It was denial from every corner, and with that, we decided to stick to the studying part. Thus went the days and came the day of study! Right from the start, surprises loaded the day. The first was a sudden approval of the invitation. Immediate action was to alter the venue and timing a bit. Next I had to a friend, who also was invited, for a certain help. I don't know why, but I decided to knock at her door once again relating the evening plan! And Voila! It was accepted. Maybe it was the sentimental tone of my voice, or maybe her own wish, but who the hell cares! She came! And so did everybody!

Next, the slight discussions about the exam took place in an awfully swift manner. Next followed the hastiness to the venue. Fun on the way, fun all over the place! This was followed by the excitement and blabbering of all of us, maybe an expression to say "I missed you" or maybe just an overreaction to happiness! But whatever it was, its was there load and clear! The place's decibel meter went high and so did the fun and frolic. But we could see it all, each on either one of our faces : the SMILE. And trust me guys, it was truly awesome! :) :) :)

The Fun of Unplanned Actions! :) :D

We all like to do things in different ways. Some like to plan things ahead, move according to a schedule and finally go for the execution of the thoughts. Others decide on the spot, trying to live life on a wilder side! True that planning does make us more sophisticated and disciplined, but wtf, where's the fun and frolic associated with it?? Where;s the hype and the tension, before the action and the relief we get after the thing is done??

Everyone has seen the movie "The Dark Knight"! In one of the scenes, the Joker tries to sway Harvey Dent into Two-Face by arousing his passion against corruption and crime in a mind-twisting manner, by simply relaying the facts! One line that touched me was : "If I blew up a truck load of soldiers and had announced it before in the media, next day, when the explosion takes place, no one would panic as it was PART OF THE PLAN!" Okay, now I am no antisocial minded guy, but the thing I am highlighting here this aspect of split second decisions, plans, etc.

Yesterday, a part of our gang had a blast in a local exotic pub! The prices were high, but we had taken our own earnings to spend and as such, it was not a big burden on the hearts! But yes, we did decide to limit ourselves to slight drinks, maybe two pegs or less, but not more! But I ended up enjoying 3 pegs of scotch and five shots of tequila! One of my friend ended up having two pegs whiskey, a margaritta and one tequila! Others simple followed! It was a bit over the board, but hell did we enjoy! After last night, when we talked about the events, every moment was laughable! Of course, the feeling of seeing and being with each other after such a long time did matter, but the part of hastyness did matter too! Quite significantly! :D

All I am trying to say is that I am that sort of a guy who makes decisions on a split-second basis. I may come prepared and ready, but I will never fluctuate just before the action! That's me. Most of the times, these moments have served me well in one way or the other, but yes, some were equally bad! But whatsoever, the thing is, if you plan something ahead, be ready for instant changes! If you want to do something now, next moment you may want to do something better, so be prepared! Depending on the seriousness of the decision, try to alert your mind about the fluctuations if you are prone to those! Most importantly, live these moments, not later or loath over them afterwards! This is what really counts! :)

"My God! You guys are Crazy!!!"

Ok, let me clear the air out! The title is not regarding any person, but these are the exact words that came out of the mouth of a very special person in my life! It was an act of excitement blended with tinges of happiness and awe! :)

So, I and one of my friends plan up a certain act for today! Knowing it was the election day, but wtf...its for our sweet little friend yaar! So we went with forward with it! The actual reason of this surprise visit is to congratulate her brother for his outstanding result in the Secondary Exams! But beneath it was hidden a fact that we simply wanted to see her smile once again, as it had been ages since we got a glimpse of her! :D So, coming back, we went to her place, kept her busy on the phone so that she will not close her eyes for an afternoon nap and then it took place! The Surprise! We called her to her balcony, as if there a network problem on the phone, and then the eye to eye contact did the entire trick! She was glad, gleeful, joyous and most importantly happy to see us after so many days, just the way we were feeling and started coming down to open the door for us screaming the "title" ;) :D

But wait! All is not so easy to achieve! Let me remind you that today is Sunday! So her dad was enjoying a nice HBO movie when we rang the bell! So he came out with a stern look! Not knowing well who we were, he asked our purpose and name and we introduced ourselves in a bit shaky manner! It was fun to expect this kind of a reaction but believe me, it was a trembling one as well! But later, when her daughter introduced us properly, he recognized immediately and we engaged in an Indian custom of touching his feet! He was glad, we were more glad! :D :D

The day smoothened thereon! We gifted her brother and congratulated him! We was happy! We chatted for hours, in her room, on her terrace and it was pure fun! Then we were greeted by the delicious dishes made my her mom and I guess, I was more glad with just the aroma! We had fun! We chatted, flirted, leg-pulled each other, and at the end! It was a merry "goodbye" to sign the energetic day off! It was worth the time!

But what I truly want to mention here is that it was not simply her smile or the food which her mother prepared for us....but it was the feeling of just getting her glimpse once again! The smile is obvious (I mean, c'on...we are good friends for the past 3 years!), but what was playing in my mind was that I knew, that after so many days of monotonous studying in her home, maybe for a few moments, we were able to make her mind free! Especially as her exams are near, I think she needed that! We have spent a lot of time together on numerous accounts! But today was something different! Maybe it was me! O maybe it was simply the situation! But whatever be the reason, the aftermath feeling on both sides is something that was worth taking the hot and humid toll on the streets on a Kolkata-Election Day! :D :D Wishing her all the luck in the world for her upcoming examinations! And yes, I don't know whether she will read this blog or not, but I want to mention something over here! I remember that on a similar such event a few months back, she had made a request before me! I think that was fulfilled today and now the rest is up to her! Right dear? :) :)

Remembering the Old Days....

Last time I had seen him, it was three months ago! There childish looks, slight gnawing on the toys and immense display of energy via kicking legs and throwing hands! Yes, there was one thing that caught my eye! It was his big, round, intolerably cute black eyes! It rolled here and there, as if looking or searching for someone, as if the lens held numerous information and communication skills but it seemed that the age did not permit the tongue to be in the right command! Out came my friend, holding a toy and immediately, the eyes became vague watery, more diametric and filled with joy! It was as if the eyes looked out for her only! Well, this is the incident that I had noticed when I first met this new born! He is my friend's elder sister's son! I just gazed at their bond and for a moment, got lost in the memories with my own little brother!

Yesterday, I met him for the second time! He was fiddling in his new toy car! He had grown a lot and the first reaction he gave me was a bit of a recognizing look! Yes, he had recognized me! The minute I took him in my arms it felt as though my own brother was back in his toddler days! I still remember the times when it was under my responsibility to look after him and feed him during the evenings, when my Mom was out for some work! I did that religiously, as if that was the most important thing in the world, and let me tell you, it truly was! I still remember the time when he used to cry and stop the minute I was in front of him! That innocent giggle, that selfless and pious look was to mesmerizing to remember any of the duties! I used to stand and gaze on him! But after his hunger was out of control, he diligently reminded me of my work by starting to cry once again! Those were the really cute days that I miss!

The thing I want to point out here is that this kind of a relationship, a brother-brother, a brother sister or any other combination is truly pure like it had never been! Just look out during the recent times! Yes, we do have fights, certain ego problems, certain attitude problems, but one thing is damn sure! At the end of the day, it always is that I look out to check his well being, and he looks up upon me to check I'm there or not! This is the moment that I enjoy the most! Even though I'm in my twenties and he's in his teens, this relation has been untouched, and I truly pray to God to keep it so!

There are times when we want our brothers or sisters out of the room or company. Sometimes for selfish reasons,and others for their own good! But do remember one thing! Never take your younger sibling for granted! Ever! They are bound to follow you in every aspect and so, if you want respect, teach them to do so by respecting them! If you want them to be able, set an example by doing so yourself! If you just want a smile on their faces, do the things that are bound to bring one, but remember! Do not spoil them! At times, we need to act tough! It looks as if the elders are heartless, and simply dominating the younger ones, but when I act tough with my brother, only I know how it feels! It feels terrible!

I decided to write this with not any intention to send a message out to you, or to enhance my writing skills, but just because today morning, I felt like jotting down this incident of my trip down the memory lane! I love my brother very very much! And I love that toddler very much for reminding this incident back to me! God Bless him!

Hope I Do Good

This one is regarding a certain thing that I am doing on my mom's request! Rather, I would say helping out someone to be able to achieve something in his life. My housemaid's son in currently in his high school days. He's got brains but not the atmosphere of education. He's got moral support, but lacks financial support! So when my maid asked mom about helping him out with his studies, mom asked me to do it! Now I love teaching! I enjoy it very very much and thus I agreed!

But to be honest with you, I had got into a duel with my mom over this issue as I knew I wouldn't be getting anything in return! I was used to the more practical mode of tutions - go, teach and get paid! (I mean, come on. I have things of my own to do, and even though I love teaching, I so expect something in return) So, my mom insisted and I had to succumb as she had given her word! This was me about a month ago. But now, I regret over my actions as I recollect all these! The reason is as follows!

The first day, this boy comes to my home and we sit down to go ahead! I take out a book and start explaining him all the related topics and aspects of that chapter and he listens intently! After the half hour session, he speaks for the first time. He asks me a doubt about a certain topic, and mind you...the question was very very apt and to the point! This attitude struck me and left me mesmerized for a few moments as I did not expect this from a boy his age! I gladly explained! He left and I kept thinking about this! The next day he comes, I learn that he didn't even touch the assignments that I had given him to complete! I was a bit angry, but I waited for the reason to fall on my ears! He told me that his mom returned late and so he had to wait till her return at his neighbour's house. Next day, he had school early and he dozed off! Genuine, but still I had expected him to give more effort!

A week later, he turns up again, as scheduled. This time, he had completed the work and stormed me with doubts. First I thought that did i guide him properly? But leaving that thought to a corner, I learned that he literally pondered over the matter that was taught to him and and had gone deep. Now this was something that I was seeing for the first time in my life. I mean come on, even I wasn't so sincere. That session ended after an hour or so and on that day, I realised something very humourous!

All these years, I was teaching numerous grades and they responded well. But I was happy only on my pay day (no laughs or sulks here, please! It's just human nature). But after that day, I truly got to realise that my claim of loving to teach was true! I felt very humble yet proud to have taught this boy. However, this feeling drowned in another mixed feeling of self-sulkness over the fact that the thing which my mother had realised was good took me such a long time to realise! God! I had even fought with her to avoid the boy! I guess that's the reason why mothers are mothers. But coming back to the topic, what I want to convey here is the fact that we do a lot of things in life which we love or which excite us to the supreme! But have we ever, on our own, given a thought about doing that same stuff with the same dedication, for FREE??? I don't about you, but before this, I definitely did not!

We all have talents and we love them! We love the fact more that we can sell them and try for that desperately. But have we ever shared it for free? Not for self gains but to help others? Not for financial stability but solely for self satisfaction? I think that maximum of us, especially of our generation, thinks in such a manner! Try it! If you think that doing a certain job makes you happy, heres the golden test - just do it for free! Do it with full dedication, but zero expectation! Then you can really justify your claim! I just learned this the hard way! Hope you can do it better!

Now, the present scenario is that I look forward to teaching this boy whenever I get time! Even though I can be dead tired, but I know that doing this will make me feel good about myself! Moreover, what I truly hope for is to do him good! That's my real aim as of now!

Watching a Friend Grow!

Okay....first of all, let me clear it out that there's no need to go overboard with ideas in your mind while taking a glimpse of the title. Its not a literal meaning, rather a metaphor! Yes, it is! This is just another experience which has taught me something in life that I want to share with everyone reading this!

Disclaimer : No Names have been mentioned (so please don't panic). No events have been cited (so others don't panic).

I remember an incident that took place about 2 years ago, back during the freshers age. This one evening, one of my friends state about an appointment which she was supposed to attend! Now at this point, let me just tell you that this "she" is one of my closest buddies (knowing quite a lot of secrets about me) and that she's already in a profession right now! But back at that time, the friendship was not so developed, but it was worth a mention! She had a problem of visiting the office alone so she asked me to escort her. I gladly agreed! The meeting was about her then-budding career in which she was very determined, and I respect this aspect about anybody! Now, she doesn't know this but I had some very important work of my own which needed dire attention that evening! Still I went ahead! Naturally, the meeting got delayed and overshooted my allowance time and as a result, I had to postpone my appointment and I returned home at about 11:30 that night! But I was happy to help her out! :)

After two lovely years to friendship, a lot of things had changed. There were awesome fights, duels but one thing remained unaffected : the trust and care! So today, another such situation had arrived before me just a few hours back! But now, her career was on a roll! She had worked hard and was now in an established position! Anyways, I accepted to help her out! I went ahead to go with her, again as a trusted aide. But what she doesn't know is that I had to again postpone certain things in order to help her out! But that's not the issue here! In todays meeting, she got a chance of her lifetime! This chance could well establish a firm foundation in her career, acting as the first crucial brick! She was happy and excited! And me? I was overjoyed! :) :)

What I am saying here is that I have simple watched her grow, professionally, in front of my eyes! I have nothing to do with her career, nothing to gain, nothing to lose and most importantly, I have no contributions! Its just her trust on me and the smile that breaks onto her face that makes me feel elated! It just that slight emotion of anxiety on her forehead that makes me care for her! It just those compliments that other seniors give her that makes me proud of her! Yes, its true! I just enjoy the emotions and the moments of having been there with her from the start!
I couldn't say all these to her on her face as it would make her teem with happiness and knowing her, she may start to cry! Lemme remind you, I cannot see her cry! I couldn't say all these to her, before, as I had a fear that it would have made her a bit vain and, maybe, would have affected her actions! But after 2 whole years, seeing her progress, I have no fear of expressing myself in front of her now!

With this, I would just like to thank her for allowing me to savor these moments in my memory and for her rock-hard trust on me! I don't whether I can make it up to her, but I would definitely try to be get closer! Best of luck for the upcoming days dear! Hope you get every lovely opportunity in the future! And yes! TREAT!!! :D :D :D

Time Out!

So...after quite a hiatus and hectic months, I guess I'm back to doing what I enjoy doing the most - writing! :)

These days, the feeling and atmosphere is very very pathetic. We have completed our exams and are now slogging away at training/project institutes while the other half of our friends are busy with long hours on the study table as they have their exams near sight! It is truly pathetic because for us because we are scattered here and there, with bleak chances to group up and have fun. But for those who are readily available are busy studying and hence, the moral is that the mornings go very hectic while the much anticipated evenings slog too much to fly by! But hey, its only a matter of a few days, so I am personally looking forward to it!

Why am I writing on such a lame topic? It's because I have duly reached my institute on time but my Professor, my mentor of the month, my project guide is yet to show his face at the reception! What to do? Nothing. Just wait.....wait....wait...wa...u get the point right? ;) Thank God that SINP has a very very lovable, cosy and most importantly, an air-conditioned (:D) library with free net access! So this is where I am at present doing this instead of fiddling with the chemicals in the lab!

But what I really feel while writing for this kinda topic is that hey...this too is a kind of time out for me! Okay, I am getting it even before the start of my day! But it still is! I have decided to relax, surf the net a bit....log on to facebook and try new applications and most importantly, write a few lines. I could have done numerous other things! There's this hot chick in the institute, who's right now laughing her time away at the canteen. I could have been with her. I could have taken a puff and a cup of tea! But I think this is what is giving me the current boost in the energy while at leisure!

Think about it! Sometimes we seem to run out of action with hell lot of time in hand. Sometimes, it just the opposite! So like, what to do? Manage time well and all that crap? I think NOT! I believe that leisure time is something that deserves attention to what we love doing the most, without taking much stress and stuff! Don't you think so? I mean, some people are born couch-potatoes! They love their hours in front of the idiot box! Some simple love to cuddle back into bed! Others may enjoy a game outside and so on and on and on......

But what the point is that whatever we do, we should enjoy it and after the event is over, the thought of having wasted your time on that should not come into play! What's the use of such a livingness then? Moreover, we often are guided as to do this in your free time, do that, manage this and that and so on and on... But I say bunk them out of your eardrums! Just follow your heart! That's the true way to enjoy life at a position where we all are today! So next time you have ample time in hand and you prefer to sleep it away, you being a sleep-a-holic, do not regret! Just be cool! Look at me! I am writing a blog at my project center simply waiting for my professor to come and dictate his instructions on me! I am cool and chilling out! Do it! You'll need it! Especially in this kinda heat!

I Have A Feeling....

After 4 poems...I decided to write in phrase this time, rather than in rhyme! The topic is nothing to be speculated about, or to make guesses about...it's simply an expression of certain things that play in my mind and about my current mental state!

They say that it's divine to loved, even more austere to be loved and most importantly, simply heaven-like to be in love! HARD and HEAVY words, I must say. But more than being a common notion, these lines mean something in my own life! Its been quite sometime since I'm rediscovering certain aspects within myself, which earlier I had thought to be inexistent! Simply speaking...I have a feeling! Its a feeling to be cherished, to be proud of, to be enjoyed and most importantly, it's something that is to be respected! What's that feeling? Well....this is a public forum....so no direct answers!

Other than all these, there is something that has been bothering me! It is the effect of "mixed-feelings"! I mean, most of the time, when our minds and hearts clash against one another, we do something which we repent upon later! On the personal front, I have experienced this too many a times and finally (ultimately, phew :D), I have come to a conclusion that though my feeling matters a lot to me, the one and only thing I should look out for is not to execute it at all times....but to propagate it by varies mean! Frankly speaking, some things are not meant to be enjoyed but rather are meant to be shared! Believe me, its true!

Whenever I see certain things occurring in the opposite direction to me expectations...I get weird feelings! But hey, if I see that the person involved is happy and is enjoying, I stay back and watch her smile. My mind tells me to take control...but my heart prompts me to just watch the smile and be happy. Strange, but yes! This is the way! Whenever I see that there is a chance of someone else stepping easily into my shoes, I get nervous, anxious and sometimes egoistic! But that's momentary! I just look at the mental calmness and serenity of the person involved and watch her happiness, which in turn makes me smile! Strange, but yes! It is true...

All I'm trying to say is that feelings are to be shared and cherished, not meant to be hidden and shy away from! If you have something going on in your heart...speak it aloud! Let everyone know! So, what if it doesn't turn out the way it should have....at least there's some purity in your feeling, rt? Just enjoy and lets things move as they are.

There In Lies My Dream!

To be able to charm myriad friends as well as foes,
On the murky road towards El-Dorado.
To be able to bring on their faces, a gentle smile,
Devoid of anguish or thoughts that are vile.
To be able to accomplish my goal with dignity,
Trying to upgrade my modesty and sanctity, simultaneously.
To those quite erratic and bigoted, strange it may seem,
But there in lies my dream!

To be of immense help to those with gratitude,
Whilst solacing myself with chastity and attitude,
To serve back with complete ardor and generosity,
Trying to pep-up all without any kind of calumny.
To be able to live and let live, non-parsimoniously,
Trying to establish my very own dune, in the vast desert of history.
Some may applaud, others may beam,
But to be true, there in lies my dream!

To acquire curio tastes and tang,
To be able to kick off anything, with a louder then ever bang!
To be able to maintain standards, that leaves others agape,
Yet try to remain simple, plain at heart: in perfect shape!
To be able to move with the times ahead and near,
Yet to be involved with the past, without any shame or fear.
All in all, I would like to say,
That whatever be my action, thought or sway,
To be a true human being, who with honor, will teem,
There in lies my true dream!!!

I'm Not Afar...

(This is ode to my mom....remembering the days and the time when I was away from her)

Gazing up at the star-lit sky & journeying down the memory lane,
I feel your presence everywhere, right from the frosty winds, to the sun and rain,
Thinking that you are away…
I go a bit nervous, I must say,
But let me tell you mom, that though there maybe a distance bar,
From you, I was never afar…

The shackles of daily life, as you may know…
Frequently takes me to my physical low,
The vanity of people around me,
Often makes me sarcastic about everyone, as you may see,
But let me tell you mom that this is the fact,
Remembering the values you taught me, I try to stay intact.

The eerie nights which I spend awake,
Be it for my commitments, or for my academic’s sake,
The calmness and the night so lone…
Makes me remind myself about our duels and my harsh tone,
But let me tell you mom that when I look back,
I always see myself wrong, my mind in the ignorant sack,
But I assure you that you have always been kind and true…
So I have to admit, if there’s someone for me always, it has to be only YOU!

So, mom, all in all…
Your love for me has been always been tall.
I know that your affection is beyond bounds, without mar…
Though I may be away….but I’m not afar!

Dear Friend...

This is just to let you know,
That there is someone, somewhere in this world; definitely not a foe.
A being to pat your back in times of cheers
And also to wipe away, in times of anguish, your tears.
A person on whom you can, blindfolded, rely,
With whom you can share your dark shades, no need to feel shy,
This is just to let you know that whatever be the stance, joy or despair,
I will always be there!

Times will come when we may, away from each other, sway,
But let me inform you that prejudice and eschew will never grow, come what may.
Times will come when we may, in our thoughts and actions, differ,
But respect and benevolence amongst us will never suffer.
Times will also come when we may, each other, taunt and rag,
But believe me; never will deportment come when fun turns into shag!
This is just to let you know that whatever be our stance, meant to give, take or share,
I will always be there!

Strange it may seem that someone, in despondency, will care,
But I would take palliative measures for you, only to be fair.
Strange it may seem that someone, during festered times, will stand by,
My friend, agape you will be to learn that I will; with a fillip touch without a sigh!
Strange it may seem that someone, with misanthropes, can act so graciously,
Well, gregarious I am then, magnanimous as well, but I will try and reach you deep within, non-apprehensively.
This to let you know that whatever be your stance, showing attitude or care,
I will always be there!

So dear friend, to conclude,
May I suggest we move on beyond our petty feuds?
Towards a world, more disparate, congeal and fair,
Don’t jitter, come hold my hand and commence, because I will always be there,
Without any vituperation and fear, enter my lambent friendship lair,
Just remember, come what may, for you I will always be there!

A Journey Worth Taking!!!

I am writing this one for you,
Because I want you to know that you are among the ones very few,
Who have put to light, a definition of friendship quite anew!
With a formal start,
To an intimacy as sweet as a tart,
We steadied forward a level so pure,
That it will just prosper from here, never degrade, that’s for sure!
So with this, I must let you know, to be honest, without jesting,
That a few moments of amity in life with you, is truly a journey worth taking!

There were times when I had something to say,
And you, like a patient being, were all ears,
There were times when anxiety loomed and I was at bay,
And you, like an honest pal, used to wipe it out with a smear.
There were times when I felt deserted, without a way,
You always comforted and guided me, making me fight my fears.
There were times when I had argued irrationally, without a chance for you to say,
But you always prevented me from swaying, like a true dear!
We have, in our friendship, seen it all,
Be it the ups…or the relenting downfalls.
But I just want you to know, to be honest, without jesting,
These moments of amity in life with you, is truly a journey worth taking!

Together we’ll laugh, together we’ll cry,
Together we’ll succeed, together we’ll try,
Together we’ll reap, together we’ll sow,
Together we’ll celebrate, together we’ll comfort when either one is low,
Dear friend, this is to let you know…
That our friendship will never end, it will steadily grow.
Whatever be our stance, meant to give, take, or share,
Be it caring or tough, be it of joy or despair,
Come what may, I will always be there!
And to be honest, without jesting,
A friendship like ours, with you…is a truly journey worth taking!

Ich Liebe Dich!

The first and the foremost thing that will come into one's mind upon reading the title is that "What the hell does it mean?". Well, I won't blame them, but its just that I want to exercise certain German linguistic skills, which I have recently acquired. Literally, the line means : I LOVE YOU in German. The line is not at all uncommon in our lives. I mean, every person has used this some or the other time in their youth (or even old age :D). Some might have used it once, twice, others might also have practiced saying it quite a number of times. But hey, I am not indulging into discussing a particular person's love life (neither am I doing so for mine), but I am intending to do so on a general basis.

I LOVE YOU! The line can mean practically anything. By dictionary terms, it connects to expression of affection to somebody who holds a special place in our hearts! But in modern days, this line has lost its true inner meaning. I mean don't you think so? Whenever we feel like saying this to somebody, that somebody has to be a girl/boy who we expect to be our love-relation-partner! But can't we say this to our parents? Can't we say it to our sibling? Or even our teachers? Of course we can! We even do so! But one question: can't we say this to our (opposite sex) friend??? Here lies the whole confusion!

We all have certain emotions attached with our friends! We meet "n" number of people, but we become close with a few. Even out of that, we become true friends with a special few. But if that friend is an opposite sex being, and you are already engaged to someone...and well...u utter this line for that friend (under certain circumstances)....u can guess what's in store for you! I won't blame anyone, but isn't it worth a thought that we ought to change our views regarding this matter. If I, being a boy, say the line to a girl, who's a very close friend of mine, does it mean that I am proposing her? I believe friendship emanates from small instances and verbal quotes like this! If you mean that he/she is truly a lovable friend, why do we have to re-phrase the line as "I love you....as a friend" ??? We can, definitely! But say a friend has done something for you, which was out of expectation, self-less mannered and aimed solely for your happiness and if we say this line, why is it that at first the words seem a bit shocking?

The topic is quite controversial (socially, but don't you think that we, being in a society as yours, where later on...owing to time paucity, we may not even have a chance of meeting and spending quality time with old buddies, these certain things live on in your minds for us to cherish? We this is definitely so! As far as relationships are concerned, I thinks lovers understand each other too well to react on petty issues like this (I hope this line is agreeable to all).

So, after almost 4 paragraphs, one may think why the heck is the title in German then? There's no German in this entire blog! Well, guys, my blog...so its my way! And most importantly, I do not know German so much so to write an entire blog in that language, I mean c'on...am still learning yaar! :D. But on a serious note, I just want to convey one thing from this piece of writing! If you criously feel for a friend (not that kind of feeling ;) ), say it! What's the harm? Believe me, that friend will be proud that he/she has someone so caring as a friend! If you really consider a person to be one of your closest alibi, just say it! There's a guarantee that there will be no confusion! One one thing will prevail in the aftermath.....rather not prevail, but will enhance...and that is the essence which we all cherish in our lives : Friendship and Care. Or in other words : Freundschaft und Pflege (in German)!! :D :P ;)