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Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Do We Ever Get Satisfied?

So...hitting off with the topic, not to mention on a decent note on the last word of the title, I guess in life we're simply too occupied to notice the changes in our surroundings and within us! Sometimes, what we want the most may seem to be a dream, but based on a daily life basis, usually, it's a momentary matter. As:

1. During School days, the early ones, we craved for a toy the most. Some got it easy and played hard! Others may have to earn it, but still the same, cherish every moment of leisure with it! But come a new commercial or simply with time, the article collects dust and we move on to the next item! And so on....

2. Growing up a bit more....to the stage where playing with toys is no longer cool....we are now in the age of much cooler, costlier things - X-boxes, PS(s), Gameboys and of course, Computers! Be it a new CD, a new song/video downloader, a new Cartridge for PS1, Gameboy, of a new version of the similar hardwares, out shifts from one thing to another is now stronger, higher and most importantly, a bit more frequent! And thus we go on....

3. Now, we enter the era where everyone end up saying that the upcoming two years of our lifes will define to a major extent what we do and how we live in life! A bit tensed, a bit responsible we venture into academics with full enthudsiasm, but as the days move on....fatigue sets in! The ironical thing is that even being capable of judging ourselves...we always end up praying to God as to make us perform better in the exams!

4. Finally...the college days! Tired of studying for boards, entrances for the last two years, we all are looking for some serrious fun now! Sole intention is to be regular in college, but not for the classes! Making friends, finding soul mates are a part of the process, but in our minds : we all want everything - marks, acclaim, fame, fun, lady friends, girl friends, and so on! I guess this is the time when God seriously gets overloaded!

5. The last two years in college demarcate a stage when things slow down a bit! Fun is still there, but the nature of self development and career tensions set in! We now look to various exams and job prospects and better profiles so as to get the best of the lot! What we forget is that we must try for getting the best, not getting everything....which we all pray and wish for!

6. Inception of the career years! We leave our homes, our colleges to venture into the world as a professional! Of course expectations and anticipations are here....but hey, this time...we are saturated with fun! We want to work now! Damn Hard that too!

7. Getting absorbed into the job.....one's too happy to get a posting, a salary, a residence address, some good co-workers, but we want to try out new things.....going out of the line! Getting a good project, finishing it before time....doing multitasking, these are everyone's dream at this stage....but, we may wish to shy and live easy, but we all pray for the consequences of the earlier!

As life goes on...so do we develop and mature towards various dimensions! Our needs, our desires, our hunger....increases exponentialy with every year passing by now....but I am really amazed to see all these ironies in my life as I can look back! They say thirst is good for propulsion....but is it not also correct to say that smoothening out desires to a tone that can look applaudable later one as well....is much better? What say?

Monday, August 29, 2011

Just Jcopia!

Have the habit of watching videos on youtube, or grooving to music on similar sites? Well, I do and I always think why go online everytime to watch them? Why do we need to download multimedia files suing various downloaders? Couldn't there be a simple software doing all of them? Recently got my answer : JCopia downloader (version 4.7)!

The download tool that helps you convert any video/audio stream into a hardisk file, this is the need for modern generation! No need to wait for the buffering to be complete! Just install JCopia and enjoy! Log onto : http://jiteco.com/jcopia.html or check out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vYTzUGWjOd0 for it's official video!

Direct link : http://jiteco.com/download/jcopia/jcopia.exe
So why wait further? Log on, download and keep downloading your favourite entertainment on your computer. It's highly recommendable.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Classificatons....

This may seem to be a Science subject, but relating to the point I'm mentioning here, it is not exactly so! I mean as far as I can remember the dreaded Biology classes, the worst was the one where came this chapter titled "Classifications"! Numerous species were grouped together.....the group names being the most uncanny and un-pronouncable ones! Tough to remember, tougher to recall during exams! But coming back to the present date, the title...the one very common among us...dreaded by every biology student.....is actually a part and parcel of our lives! The question is how far will you go?

Sharing a room with a person calls for adjustments! Sometimes sacrifices! But hey....there lies the fun right? I mean one can really get to know their extent and stretchability by doing and experiencing similar things! But, how possesive are you? Not in the context of relations but on a more materialistic approach? I mean...do we label eveything we own?

I own a lot of things here! Books, my deo, my spectacles, my purse (obviously) and numerous big and small items! So does my roommate! Sometimes, it so happens is that we may share a particular thing having decided on a treaty of equal share! But do we actually end up sharing a deo bottle, to the precision of 0.01 ml? Or do we ever share a packet of biscuits having consumed exactly 5 out of the 10 pieces in the packet? Ever heard of a story where people end up sharing equal bed spaces on the bed, even though they share the room rent? I doubt that!

The point is, in a world like today, where some say ethics are the notions of the past....where utter practicality and self-centred nature is th best approach to life, at least economically and financially, there comes a time when you reallise that sharing a thing or two out of your own pocket does not actually trigger a heart attack! I mean, c'on. I too value my finances to the extreme! I maintain cost sheets, try to normalize my daily expenses and keep a copy of my calculations down to every rupee! If anybody owes me even say Rs 10, or coming down, Rs 5 or 2, I ask for them! That is my right! Some may find this a bit offending, but its a fact. Most importantly, it's me! But hey, asking somebody to accompany your down to a local store, offering them a cup of coffee....or say some friends come over and you decide to pay for their dinner or lunch...feels good! Not that you're trying to prove a point, but simply because you want to do it! Isn't it an ancient phrase stating what goes around, comes around?

Now, what if people start demarcating every single thing, as their own? Not other's items.....but their own belongings, to the extent that others think twice to even use it for emergency purposes? What if you're asleep...while your friend suddenly falls sick....in need of a tablet which you have. Knowing it is there in the box labelled "My Medicine Box", will he/she even have the urge to ask you for it? You may allow on medical grounds, but what about the other ones? This is definitelty not self-centrness.....this is sheer parition! Being Indians....we all know greatly about this term, right from the freedom eras! Don't you think it's time we at least relax some laws....laws set by us....here and there? I mean....the Border, which every nation fights for, isn't exactly demarcated by such long lengths of fences! Neither is a single gallon so accurate while sharing an oil well between complanies! Nor is every drop of water from a lake shared so accurately by various dams!

The whole point in writing such long paras...at 1:30 in the night (Saturday night of course! :P) is to state that yes, I believe in practicality and equal share! I believe in owning things....using them for my own convinience! Yes, I believe that things I pay for....must be used in such a manner that I do justice to my bills! But this does not mean that I will draw my own border, in my own domain....simply to keep people out! If you feel wrong or uncomfortable....just blurt it out! Thing's will become understandable....once you yourself understand and allow other's to do the same! Enforcement, as we all know...leads to one thing - WAR! And who can know this better than our current generation? So guys....signing off....just to remind you....use your own things....make your point...your region...but not borders! It may hurt others, may increase your profitability....but trust me, its definitely not a profit you'll end up enjoying!

(Based on a true and recent incident! )

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Corporate Behaviour....

I guess it's almost 2 months here at Bangalore.....new job....new office (no permanent cubicle as of yet though)...new city...new environment (too costly I must say)....everything is new! But as a group of people, just baked out fresh from College, I guess somethings do not change...however newness is put in front of you! I am talking here of the so-called "College Behaviour"....the one appraised by people like us...and also the other employees at BTP (my observation)...the one loathed by HR Officials (why the hell I don't know)!

This is a flat organisation. People are cool....approachable....interactive, most importantly...friendly! But come the month of July-August, things steer in some other direction! The usual call for the past one a half months has been "This is not Corporate Behaviour", or "Guys! You are not in College anymore! Grow Up!". These words, as spoken by a much notable official, in quite a 'heavyweight' manner...was the top most hated quote...not because of the message, but for the tone! We all decide to have a face off with her...of course in the most polite and decent manner possible, and being a flat organization where feedbacks from the Chairman to the peon is goven equal weightage, she ends up noting down our names.....for what, that still remains a mystery (it didn't affect the last month's salary though....donno about the upcoming one!)! But still, the fact remains.....it's "Corporate Behaviour" which we all have to adapt to!

What is Corporate Behaviour? Is it the utter politeness we all have to bring to our voice tones? Is it the overflowing tinge of austerity and authority we have to imbibe? Is it the ultra-formal nature we all have to conduct ourselves in? Or is trying to be a human....who serves to be an example to behavious...as per the context of the HR Officials? Frankly speaking, I did not find a single such entity in my entire office building, for the past 4 weeks! Yes of course, I adhere to some sense of alertness and proactivity at office.....yes, I try to keep my conduct within the mentioned codes...I try to be friendly, but with a formal touch and slight pinches of informality....but never do I try to extend the adjectives to such an extent that it crosses Hook's Condition!

What I really am baffled with is that I never actually understand what the HR people are up to? Or what is it that they expect with other people? Come the topics of reimbursement, payments dues, stipends..and they scatter away like dust! Come the topics of lectures on behavious, how to be proactive, contributing to the Orgfanization and what all and what not....they keep on standing like a gigantic figure! But as per them....this is a flat organisation...feedback from every person is treated with equality! When you tend to clear your doubts about certain procedures and rules, they keep on going with their motor mouths, exclusive expressions, and mystical authority....but come the time when you ask about serious issues like stipends not to be paid in the salary accounts, the time frame for re-imbursements, and well....you can guess! But then again...this is a flat organisation....and feedbacks from every person is treated with equality. Want to be proactive? Want to approach the RnD department, thinking that you can stretch and do something more for yourself and the company? Well...go ahead! But later on...be ready to hear this : "See...this may be a flat Organisation...but rules are meant to be followed! We encourage your aspect, but not your behaviour! This is not corporate behavious....going up just like that....and talking to who ever you can! There are rules! There are procedures....There is a HIERARCHARY!" But then again....from the same mouth...on the first day at BTP...."This is a flat organisation...feedbacks from every person is treated equally! Getting the irony?

What I have personally come to think of is that HR people consider thier grades and seniority...to be something other than the track! The company I work in follows a flat hierarchy...but this is within your own team...your boss....and the other departmental people....but come HR, well...everything changes! I really wish to know what do they teach at the B-Schools they attend to prior to their jobs? I mean...why such a nature? I mean...people can be tough to manage.....but in a manner where you end up contradicting your own words...sometimes, the complany motto as well....is there really a need for such behavious? Oh sorry....such a Corporate Behaviour?

Well....I can go on with my own work! Trying to see I deliver the best...give the best...learn the best! But, as far as Corporate Behaviour is concerned..well....I am planning to apply for a Fellowship Degree at one of the B-Schools with this being my research thesis! Thinking of a reco from my HR Manager! What say? Should I apprach as " I want to apply Mam for a B-School Degree! Can I expect a recemmendation letter from the HR department?" plain...polite and simple? Or should it be...buttered with extra oil.....extra appreaciation.....some catchy accent...and most importantly...A+ Category of "Corporate Behaviour" (HR Recommended, mind it!)?

Sunday, August 14, 2011

The Raakhi Phenomenon...

The annual brotherly-sisterly event....the day when potential lovers may or may not receive shocks.....the day when people are seen sporting colourful designer thread on the wrists and the ladies, teeming blushing red, holding the gifts and sweets they have got in return....the day of complete animated events, not only on a personal level, but also on a public/business level....all in all, the day of events where one promises to be there for the other person....holding them in times on needs, while the other blushes with that confidence and sense of security, while the world around them just tries to make the things special for them, in an attempt to share the happiness of the moment! But is the thread a sole symbol meant for brothers and sisters only? Or does the meaning of "promised security and presence" still persists in existence? Or has this day evolved as a nightmare for guys....where some girls tend to seal the lid completel with this symbol? These are all various contexts of the current raakhi scenario, but today..I am writing about my only sister....the sole person who introduced me to this wonderful relation!

I belong to a family where the siblings of my generation are all boy! I don't know whether it was a sheer act of fate or a drought of X chromosomes in our previous generation men, but here we are....all boys! During childhood, I never had the feeling for a sister...neither did I think I need one! I had a conception that if I have brothers, we can wrestle our muscles, evolving our brotherhood and a sister is a proclamation of an incoming "nekami" and sole crying at every instance! God! I was so wrong! But hey, I was quite young then! Come the days of the cusp of my adulthood was the moment I truly realized the need for a sister. This was after meeting Priyanka, then...my budding sweetheart friend and also, the girlfriend of my batchmate! To be honest, we did spark off as very nice friends...slowly manifesting that part, but later on we shifted also to brother-sister relation. Okay, I have to admit....since I never had the need for a sister, I agreed onto that shifting solely because she was committed, and I do not flirt with committed girls! :P :D. This was, I guess, more of due to the flatterer and flirt in me...which acted on, but as the days rolled by, I started to realize the actual effect of this relation.

She trusted me more....and so did I. Sometimes, I ended up sharing things with her, to an extent I had never done before with my friends. Same was the response from her side. We had fights, conception disagreements...and what all and what not! But we stood still! At one point, we even had times when we simply stopped talking...or ended up having cold vibes, but I guess when back at home, it was this relation that geared ahead, keeping the bond alive! She teased me as though I never paid much attention to the girls who were already committed.....partly true, partly wrong, but I guess by this date, I have proved her wrong! I do care for her, the way a friend should do...the wat a brother should do! I am ready to support her in any manner, trying to introduce her to new opportunities she can try out, in order to truly test her potential (God, she knows how much "gyaan" have given her on this context), but on the bottomline, I guess after numerous good times and equally rough patches, I can say aptly that come what may, she'll always find me on her side!

I guess I have to hand it to her....having introduced me to such a pure relation! Yes, we are more like good friends, but by this time...the platform of it has evolved, and now....when I am miles apart from her, having received a raakhi by mail....I simply cannot stand still, admitting that I'm OK. I feel utterly nostalgic! I feel I could have been there, or she could have been here! I could have treated her, got her some new (ektu shosta) items....simply to watch her smile and her eyes starting to twinkle! I wish today could have been the day for us...where we could have met...not simply as friends, but as brothers and sisters! Yes, at times, we do flirt with each other. But that's the element of friendship! :P

So I guess this is me...signing off...saying a hi and a bye to me sweet sister! Stay beautiful dear....stay utterly sexy! And mind you, we can always go on a date baby! But don't worry, it'll be a date on the outside, but come inside, it will be a date of a brother...treating her sister, making her have a few moments of happiness! Chill re!

(Dedicated to Priyanka Paul....) (Aar bolbi je committed meyedr naki ami patta di na? )

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Friday, August 12, 2011

How Far Can You Go?

Sometimes in life, at times quite grave,
There's this need to be self-less, to be bold, to brave...
In order to do something for a loved one, for an emotion to save...
That our minds tell us to stop, only the heart commands to go down the pave!
At that point, it's us, our nature...that forces us into the sacrificial cave,
Making us do the right thing needed, for that special one....making us go against the wave!
But as easy as it sounds, or as simple it may seem to be so..It's as tough to follow, as critical as a pain can grow,
Beacuse of the fact that it tears us apart, making us shiver...from head to toe..
That the question remains strong, just think.....How far do you think you can go?

Holding her hands, Embracing her tight...
The world always seems to spin around, and then fo bright!
But imagine the point when such luxuries strive only in dreams, only in the distant sight,
What happens next...is all up to us...we can turn away....or stay, giving it a fight!
But whatever be our dialogues before, or the claim of our might...
When times comes, there's a summon of true valour and honour...we can shy away, or stand upright!
As easy as it sounds, or as simple it may seem to be...
Claiming and carrying are two diagonal features, as opposite as one can see....
Because of the fact that it rips our hearts, setting our emotions on flame...on the flow..
It's easy to think....but harder as you dig deep....just ask yourself, How far are you willing to go?

Love's a divinity, an aura or pure ecstasy,
But it too faces times so grave, times of testing....or sheer capability,
That it may seem a cake-walk at first, and move on to be a sensous emotion of divine serenity...
It it too needs some care to be fuelled, something that stands out of normality!
One may surprise, one may bring a smile so glowing...
One can shower gifts, one can simply devote time, just to keep the heart beating!
Some say it needs a spark, it needs some mystery...just to be exciting,
Others state that actions should be apt, being concerned with monotony or things turning boring!
Some say its necessary to please....to excite...
While others are more concerned just to soothe....or to ignite...
But whatever we do, act upon....the questions remains that whether we do what is right?
Whether we can allow some pain for us, just to make her wishes see the light?
Or whether we do something unasked..out of the league, just to see the element of surprise?
But the fact remains....to do what is asked, needed and right...sometime pokes us tight, so much so...
That it ends up puncturing the heart, our feelings toi whither....with the pain taking it tow...
The question stands intact..it's thought still deep and pure...
It's solely for love...being the acid test for all to know....
Think deep...think hard...that honestly, How Far Can You Go?

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Your Wife's Mine!!! (English Version of "Tor Bou Amar")

Well....the idea...the concept...the naughtiness...the feel...all are my creations under this one title : Your Wife's Mine! This took shape during a regular discourse at the college canteen, probably at the start of my sophomore year. The characters, the backdrop, the events and most importantly, the hunsbands and the wives...all had been decided! Hell, we even created two to three episodes of this fictitious serial, just sitting back with coffee cups in our hands! What awesome days! This note is a dedication....a dedication to not only our "social" serials and daily soaps, but also a dedication to their contribution in generalizing and commonizing terms and events like plastic surgery, marriages/re-marriages, pregnancies, abortions, affairs...and the list goes on! At that time, I had thought that hey, if people love watching things for hours on the television highlighting these aspects as if they're our daily bread n butter, why not try an idea for myself? At least we'll have fun discussing them! :D

Just imagine...the kind of linguistic vagrances we use for the Western Society, simultaneously propelling our own culture and practices to the peak! Well, our usual claim is that they do not know what decency and stability is, and should learn from us. True! But is this applicable to all our aspects? I mean, if the Govenrment approved Censor Board can cut certain "scenes" from the movies, simply to reflect our social touch, whilst allowing the serials to promote conceptions that way more awkward and beyond the movies themselves????? During the 80's, a smooch was regarded as something vile to be presented on screen. As a result, the idea was retained, replacing the video with two nudging flowers (usually a sunflower). Come the new millenium, we definitely have opened up, and I believe there's a need to do so. But still, we hold back certain similar aspects and concepts! Well, if that is the case, how come the K serials get the licence to promote pregnancies and abortions as if they were a matter of mere transactions? Or the number of marriages a woman can have? Or even the extra-marital affairs? The fact is, it is shown on TV that these things were unwanted and loathed, based on the situation....but just one simple question, keep showing a kid some porn movie covers, and keep on telling them...do not watch them, they are vile and bad...days in and days out, every single time! Is it not very usual to expect him/her to have ended up enjoying the movie th very next days? It's always the curiosity that works!

Be it tiffs between relatives, preconceived notions about social aspects or simple minor mentalities, all are being moulded into something quite strange! People loathe the cultures like Live-In, Bachelorhood, Spinstership, having children out of wedlock but the vary same, they lap it all up during the prime time hours! Ironical, but this is what has become of the current TV Audiences! Whatever crap they hand out, they just seem to lap it all up! These days, in a serial, if you miss out in between, you may end up tuning to it later on, only to find that so and so lady has now shifted her affair status to so and so person, already having 2-3 kids, pregnant with one....and having left the prior ones with the previous guy! Or maybe same's the case for th guy, in a vice-versa manner! Sometimes, it's like getting an abortion (the sole outcome of premarital sex, as if people as so dumb enough not to take precautions and stuff) is like buying a candy....or getting a divorce, mind you with tearful eyes, is easy, getting a soulmate the very next episode is easier! Ever noticed the fact that sisters of husbands are meant to be the devils, while the newly wedded wife turns out to be the saviour of a family, everytime? Also, how come a guy, with a girls child, has to face so so many tensions...as if he's runnig the universe and it's going awry and all the shit in the world happens only to him....and a guy with a male child can bloat around all he wants?

I agree that modern serials, the one's springing new in, are more focused towards social issues like child marriages and stuff! It's a thing to be applauded. But don't you agree that even though they start off with intentions so noble, they end up dragging their telecasts into the very same matter, highlighting more the incentives and methods of the attrocities more, rather than on how to curb them out? This is the thing which annoys me the most! I mean...if the censor board can clip off scenes, just to make them worth pictured on Indian Screens, what the hell are they doing about the one's being broadcasted daily? Either you curb them out completely, or influence the people in such a manner that the constant over-rating of self culture, and demeanour of the one's belonging to others be stopped! I think it's not much to ask!

Coming back...the sole intention of giving the article this name is because I am damn sure, people will end up reading to this line and get attracted more due to the title (almost to the tune of 70%)! See what I mean? The lines sound bad...but the idea attracts right? So are we any different from the one's sitting in USA/UK/Australia? Think it out! If yes, then......well.....no comments! If no, then should we discuss out the episodes and storyline of the title in the discussions box? ;) ;) :D

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Sparks and Smiles...

Ever shuffled through a friend's profile? Not after noticing some update or some new pictures in the album, but simply just like that? Sometimes...it's as if going through the same posts, pages, updates and all. But at times, it's like you fin something you never before noticed..something which brings out a sudden adrenaline rush through your body, helping you get relieved of boredom (which I was going through at Office) in an instant!

So....I had just returned from a coffee break. Before starting my tutorial, I thought of hanging around a few moments in FB simply to waste my time till a self declared "muhurat" was reached! I visit a profile, of a friend of mine....a sweetheart friend not to forget, and simply browse through her tagged pictures. Seeing the maximum one's from my own album, it was as if the very same looks I had earlier seen, and so, lethargically, I just scrolled down and down and down!

Suddenly, there he was....draped in a Blue Saree.....slight touch up on her face....Hair laden back...and smiling and striking an awesome pose, with three of her friends. She looked BEAUTIFUL (notice the emphasis on the words written in Caps Lock)! She simply did! I had never seen this picture....never noticed it! But it was there....amidst the ones tagged almost 10 months earlier! I had to enlarge and view it.....and thus, snapped away from my boredom!

I noticed the smile! It was one I had seen the first day we shared a laugh! In the years to follow....I had seen that a numerous times, when at times....when at times, I simply did not heed to it that much as it was a daily routine. But now...I just want to see her smile again! Reminds me of our journey....the wonderful path we all treated during the last four years! I notices her looks, her style...typically her! Smiling, I just leaned back onto the chair...trying to figure out as though when it could have been taken and where! Unsuccessful, I simply return to she her joy....and then, thinking back, smile once again!

It' amazing as how a mere, boring activity can sometimes yield to be of suh an immense source of joy! Similar things done with the profiles of my other friends brought back the same feeling! Now, at this point, I would like to mention that maximum of their tagged pictures are from my own FB Albums. I have them all...almost all in my laptop! So why not simply see my own pics, minus the charge of the net, and smile in a similar fashion? This is a thought to be pondered over, but I guess I have my own answer!

With the current advancements in communication, people tend to say out their minds and feelings, at the fastest mode possible. A pic posted on FB, we simply comment as soon as we feel like. And of course, the "like" button! Then again, if the net fails, there's always an option of sms, email and finally phone, in the stated order! Since her picture was tagged in another friend's album, I couldn't comment. The urge of complimenting her was so strong, that this is the method I have chosen, simply to try out something new! (This helps my blog too as well :D :P)

Jokes apart, feeling bored? Feeling lonely? Missing friends or a loved one? Just idly browse through their profiles! The disclaimer here's that there's no guarantee as to the spark may happen...but hey, that too depends on you! Trust me, it feels awesome!

(A small dedication to Soumita Mukherjee, my sweetheart friend, whose one pose made me write down all this! Miss you yaar!)

Monday, August 8, 2011

PSU v/s Private

Job Sector's two major divisions....
For some, first is the sole recognition,
While other's are wooed by the latter, gaping at their culture, at their work tradition,
But since time immerial, the debate's still on - which one has a better valuation?

Is it the chanllenging factors, that leads to profile updation?
Or the simple happy-go-lucky nature, leading to a tensionfree progression?
For some, it's the matter of self-satisfaction...
While other's like to follow a pattern, remain within a focused jurisdiction!
But all the aspects, irrelevent to their value-addition...
Has a bright side of their own, thus fueling the debate...firing the ignition!

Is it the desire to work out, the feeling of self-dependency that serves as a motivation?
Or is it the sole aim to work freely, in an easy manner that serves as a true inspiration?
Some do like to take the bends, avoid the normal navigation,
But for others, they feel safe to take the route of the defition!
All the above, irrelevant of their own predictions,
Have certain unique benefits, adding to individual aspirations!

But it all boils down to one simple obsession,
"Will it be Money over power,
Financial Aspect over Positional Occupancy"...
Making the debate a true subject of inclination,
As every person taking a side, feels the other one to be full of propositions!
As life's continues with its diversions,
This is one of those main confusions...
That what will be the best for me, helping in my career proliferation ?
Will it be the opportunity laden Private Organization...
Or the safer, easier Public Insitution?

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Write Your Heart Out...

Writing is a boon...an art,
Serving as a mode of memory journey...sometimes as a thought cart!
With some shying away, others as sharp as a tart...
It feeds thy innerself, fueling the expressions with the velocity of a dart!

Some pieces are general, some are mere feelings,
But in everyone of them...I can see and feel a pure thought reeling!
With some opening up bare, others keeping the words adhering...
What ever be the motto, or the aim...it helps you open up, keeping your mind scintillating!

If I write something, it's for my current mood,
If I read something, I do so to satisfy my habitual prude...
But the fact remains, I do read a lot...
Making it a point to write whenever time permits, adding to my happiness pot!

Are we to write about something so deep?
Or can we stick to topics that life, everyday, reaps...
Or is there a need to write about things that can make a change, with a constant beep?
Or maybe should I write touchy quotes, pinching the emotions, making others weep?

I write because I love to....
Whenever I'm in a mood, I jot them down....adding to my hue!
Sometimes it's pure romance, that I feel for my girl, for her rue...
Sometimes it's a simple daily instance, that I feel, to quote down, is the right thing to do....

To write what you feel, this is my motto....my fact!
Sometimes it can make a person smile, keeping the relation intact!
There may be times when a grave need approaches, requiring a massive online pact...
During such hours, the best way to contribute is to write...create...contribute, adding to the act!
But just remember, don't be biased, of keep yourself narrow...
It does convey a message to others, going in them...very deep, or just a surfacial shallow!
But keep it pure, keep it simple...
Other's may share the passions, or may read and smile with a dimple....
Knowing that you spend time to write down, prividing them with thought to swallow...
But deep down they understand your feelings, identify your emotional route....
Just remember : Whether it be simple, suave or strong...grave, surfacial..nevertheless of the "about"...
Just WRITE YOUR HEART OUT!

Saturday, August 6, 2011

The Eyes!

It was a starry night....of a winter quite cold,
She was sitting beside me...her head a bit down, probably trying to make some words unfold!
I simply gazed at her.......noticing the eyes, so sharp...so bold!
Under the streetlight, beneath the dim...it appeared to glitter glamouroursly... .

As the seconds passed by, I could feel my heart melt...as if going in for a mould!
Days then passed, the cold started to flee.....
Giving way to numerous things in my life....only to wonder, "where was she?"
Then, all of a sudden....I get that stare once more....
It was her! But this time....things became a bit sore!

I was busy, so all to say...
She kept poking, but I simply couldn't respond....I too was in dismay!
But once things cleared up...I wasted no time...
This time she was surprised in seeing me poking, starting to toss the dime!

We started off....a bit fast, yet steady as it can be...
And soon...the air cleared out! Leaving me tensed, while she giggled on....with gusto and glee!

We meet up...before the day was charted...just to be in each other's company,
But the motti was clear....I didn't want her to exit again from life...the way we had to, earlier, flee...
The giggles were on....but I noticed a new glaze,
It was her eyes which did the talking....while silence sung on with blaze!

Moments passed, the silence continued....
Smiles erupted, but they were greaty subdued!
As this was the moment in my life I had been waiting for....
This was the moment I was craving for....
It was not merely in letting her know about me, about my motto....
It was her eyes...the glance...the gaze....I was wishing for....craving for!

She slid her eyes beneath, lowering her head below....
I was left trembling, hoping what would her eyes convey next....after this bow!
It happened! She looked back....this time with another glance....
I was simply hoping the tone in her eyes be the same....the one that kept me in some majestic trance!
It was now clear, the eyes were talking....
They were softer...the glance more pure....with them being more enchanting!
This was my moment....the day I got my dream....I was overjoyed, the effect was my lungs started panting...
Not for air....not from desperation..but about the moment that just brushed past,
As from now on...it was not me...my sole existence below the Heavenly mast,
But from now, i was a "we".....What a feeling it was! And it did go by fast!

Till this day....
I yearn for her eyes....for them something to say,
That never in my life I've seen such beautiful feature....such enchanting asset,
That gave me a desire to carry on, the strength to trug on....as if Life's own ray!
I feel enchanted, I do whenever I get a glance...
Be it of joy, seduction, anger or irritation...the effects the same...only the sideeffect being my chance!
But everynight, when I close my eyes....
I try to see her's, trying a peek at the glance...
Only to keep myself steady..as I know..
Time may come and go...
But I'll still be yearning for the glance....the gaze...
Of the eyes....
Her Eyes!

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Friendship Day.....the Distance Factor

For the past four years.....this eventful day - Frinedship Day, had always been one of those special cluster of hours during the year! Numerous text messages being relayed here and there, with some opting for gifts and cards! Others consorting to hangout places and joints, while a few made some ambitious plans for celebrations! However, for us....namely for our group at college, it had always been a day, where the smiles (upon seeing each other) would be more radiant....a few plans and most importantly, all this topped with a lot of "masti" and "khilli"! Whatever had been the scenario back then, the day was always special.....always eventful....always full of joy!

Now....coming back to reality, this is my first friendship day after having seperated from my beloved buddies at Kolkata. At this point, I guess it is rightful to mention that my childhood has covered a lot of places. As such, I have a few, notable school friends with whom I am still in touch, but if you ask me the most notable ones in my life....it would the ones from my University! As such.....today, where in the past years, would have been spent planning on things and stuff....this time, I was on my own! Not that I didn't have any option! But it's just that I chose to! After a week long service at Office, especially with the voluntary project at RnD, weekends seem more of a space to sleep than to chill out! :D But today, I had some strange feelings run around within me....forcing me to smile at times, and sometimes, it also did amaze me!

The thing is....till this day, it was always that my friends served as a source of energy for me! Whenever they're with me....the energy levels soar within me, creating an aura of agility in me! Whether a holiday, or a plain simple evening at home....plans were always in the making! But the mentality was similar to the one where one ends up thinking that this person/thing is always there with me....for me! It's not that I had taken any of them for granted (I mean God...the one's I fought with...they know!), but it was this relief that they're a mere auto's distance away....or a simple local call away! But today.....all this has changed! The local factor has upgraded to STD. The feeling is now not of relief...but of a sense of purity arising from the memories that we shared!

Today I won't say that I will always be there for my friends.....simply because I don't have to utter the words to make them feel so! Today, I won't end up calling them and saying that yes you idiot....I miss you like hell, for the fact that they know that I miss them dearly! Its just that I feel more connected to them these days....maybe not on a daily basis or face to face aspect...but from a mental approach....kinda telepathic! For the entire day today, I was at my accommodation....thinking about the times we had spent together.....about the "khorakhs' we mused and generated....about the events, fights and reapproaches! I ended up seeing all the videos and pictures on my laptop....solely to re-realize their value in my life!

During the changes that most of us experienced in the past few months....I have made a few good friends as well. For them, it's like a new journey with me! I am exploring them, as they are with me. I feel for them as well.....and with this, I would say that I do care....maybe not as much as their college buddies too.....but hey, I didn;t get that much of a time, right? ;)

But whatever be the thing, the scenario...the effect, I believe that with this friendship day....we are entering a world more practical, mature and humane! Now it's solely up to us. We can choose to keep on holding the ropes, or to simply let them go! It may sound easy, but trust me it's tough....but then again, what's the fun in doing the easy things in life right?

This is me....wishing everyone a happy friendship day! For those of us scattered around.....just keep the flame alive, the feeling grows stronger! For the ones still there.....just hang on guys! You all are too special to me to be forgotten even for a second! :) :)

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Friday, August 5, 2011

Sometimes.....

Sometimes....it feels you're there, just beside me...
But then again, reality bumps in....abling my eye to believe what they see!
I smile....simply to think of life and to accept the practicality,
Just eyeing for a future I dream......for a dream that involves you in totality!

Sometimes...I remember your expressions when it rains,
Only to keep staring at them some some...for an intangible gain!
I close my eyes, trying to hear what you would've said, would've done...
Realizing that these are the true moments, of sanity, of joy, of fun!

Sometimes...I prefer the road simply for myself, walking alone....
This is to imbibe the wind, to feel its moan...
Somehow, they remind me of you.....of your smile....of the glitter in your eyes!
And in them...I find my morning booster....much more effective than flakes and ryes!

Here...about two and a half hours of flight away,
I have missed you very moment....only to realize today,
That however far...
You are not afar...
You're just a blink away....
The effect's purer....like a soothing ray!

Sometimes.....
No! Almost everytime....
I feel am with you....you're with me...
I am here....your're there....
So all I can, at this moment, say
Is that this is for us to be together....
In a much better way! :)

Leaving Paradise!

It had been 12 years since I had left Kolkata and lived abroad. I had developed a lot of mindsets about the place....about the people. Most of them were negative, seeing the personal cases while living my childhood up north. Others reminded me of my family...the only soft corner for Kolkata.



Come 2007, I'm back in the city! This time, with a venture quite anew...a venture others dream of....a venture that made me feel that I was about to follow my Father's footsteps! All this brought in me a new sense of giddiness. This time, to my own amazement, all preconceptions and notions drained off instantly. Some call it the euphoria of Jadavpur....other's tag it as the mesmerizing effect of the City. But all I know is that starting from that year....I lived in Kolkata like a true Bengali!



During these four years...I met a lot of people. Some became close, while from some I chose to stay far. Whatever be the thing, I ended up having interacted with all. I saw and felt things develop and bend withing me....both emotionally and psychologically. I did things I could never imagine being capable of....some were good, while others were seriously flawed. But whatever be the thing, I did learn from each and every one of them.



Today....23rd June, 2011...is my last official day in Kolkata. I don't know what the future holds for me, but I do have plans in my mind. Today, I have friends to die for....I have a sweetheart to care for....most importantly, I have responsibilities to attend to! All this...coming within a nostalgic domain of the past...while the future stands in front with its doors kept ajar. It's damn funny. I feel terrible for leaving the place I once dreaded to have come to! Today, the future excites me....but I do want to keep a strong bond with my Hometown! This....is really something strange for me. I have migrated numerous times in my life...so the tear part is not so easy to come. But deep down, I can feel my belly juggling!



I have been writing nostalgic notes since Jan, 2011. I intend to keep this one as the last! But as in previous cases, I had enough words at my hand....today I feel speechless! I just want to spend another hour at Staff Canteen...surrounded my sought after faces, with a cup of tea and a cigarette in my hands. I want to roam the halls one last time...trying to visualize the mistakes I had done back then...so that I may not repeat them later on. I want to remember the flukes and the flaws...which were dreaded once...but now, brings a smile onto the concerned lips! Leaving the college part aside...I want to spend the few left moments with my sweetheart...holding her...embracing her! Definitely not for the last time....but for the momentary last ones!



My dad always says that emotions come in the way of development. But emotionless actions create a mere stone, not a man! I guess I'll be boarding the flight to Bangalore Friday Morning thinking as to how to strike the balance. I want to come back....for my loved one....for my friends....for my family! But I do want to excel there! I want to keep contact for as much time possible, but then again...a clap cannot be made with one hand! I want to enjoy the rains of Kolkata once more....but I do want to enjoy the weather at other places.



So I guess, this is me....writing my last nostalgic note. I have just packed my documents...the last of my packing bit....and now....left with one day to do whatever I wish to do. I met a dear friend of mine...probably for the last time in the upcoming one year....maybe more...but then again...I wish to feel the essence or our friendship and carry it on! I have a day....out of that a few hours to be beside her....and I intend to make the most of it! I have a day...with my mom and my brother....having left with a few more hours to say goodbye!



Be in touch! All of you! Not a request....it's an order! We all have work and time paucity in life....more to be coming in the next few months....but it is we who make time....not the other way round! Just remember....even a 5 mins devotion can bring out a smile, whose aura lasts for hours! Try it! Gonna miss you Kolkata....gonna miss you my friends, my dear....my family!

Bliss!

(A Dedication to my sweetheart)

I guess a point has come in my life where one particular update has changed almost every aspect in me....in a better manner! Writing about it....or rather about the person concerned is indeed tough as this person is not just another entity in my life....neither is she simply as wellwisher.....but she's the official tenant in my heart....the sole soul-sharer in my life! This introduction, I believe, can vouch for every other feeling I am currently oozing with! The journey started a couple of days back! Till now...it has been the most important event in my life..but as the days go by, the effect seems to nourish itself with I don't know what!



A simple recontacting on the website.....a action of number exchange, followed by a brief conversation....this is what it took to realize the mutual desire! The next day was a mixed-feeling-day! I was afraid to give her a ring....but the desire to do so was so overwhelming, that it ended up with me calling! The casual greetings were followed by a brief description of the daily chores...when all of a sudden, both of us decided to get down to business : "Why do you call me so often?"



What could I say? I like you? I like you very much? Please understand! I could have uttered all of the afore-mentioned, but "Just like that" was all that came out of my mouth! She seemed displeased, and I was left furious at myself! But the things swung back to action when the conversation converged with time! And voila! She was aware....and I was finally relieved that at least I could convey her the message!



The next day......man, was it anticipating or what? The entire day I just kept on thinking as to what would be her reaction after I call her that evening! All I could think of was an endless ring on the phone (unanswered) or a simple slam on the face! But to my surprise...she kept her cool.....but she did blush! The was finally a silver lining in sight!



So we went on with the conversations.....the topics shifting from casual ones to the heavy one! Before the day we were about to meet for the first time....the things were almost quite obvious - I liked her...she liked me in a similar manner! It was simply the official thing that remained to be done! But hey, just before ending the call.....the reply from her end was quite alarming! I remained awake for almost the entire night....just thinking about the day that was to unfold!



I was on time at the fixed destination....she came a few minutes late! She looked stunning, but all she had on her face was a few giggles, with a pinch of blush! We serenaded through the traffic...sharing a few laughs....having a few light moments, when I cropped up the question once again! The road on which we were treading down was jam packed! We had to move quite synchronously, else the bashing from the other pedestrians came from everywhere! Also, the local decibel meter too was quite high! It was at this stage....this moment...the she too confessed of her feelings! :)



The date might not have been what others would call a dream date! The destination...the situation too were all the same! But hey, those few lines from her mouth not only made my day....but I guess were about to make my life in the years to come as well. It maybe too early to comment right now, but I guess I have to confess.....my college life.....my life had been upgraded to a five star level due to my friends, department and my group! But on that very moment...it got rewarded with two additional stars! With almost 2 weeks down the lane, only you know what I can do for you.....and vice versa! Only I can comment what you mean for me....and also, the same applies for you! But one thing's for sure.....I can now truly say that meeting you on New Year's eve...having established the FB connection once again....and having a chance to meet you have been like a bliss! :)

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"The GODFATHER" Aftermath

Every year, at the Book Fair, I keep my quest on rearding the discovery of a classic so pure, so tempting, so irresistable that I guess when I finish turning the last page of the book, I would get goosebumps and experience a new feeling. I guess my quest is over. This year...my most memorable and lucrative investment at the Book Fair : Mario Puzo's "The Godfather" (not to mention the 20% discount!) :D



Starting to read the classic took me a staggering 5 years. I don't know what was it that kept me away from it, but I didn't dare touch the book whenever I had the chance of owning a copy! But this February, I guess all that was left behind. Having started off with the characters of "Sonny" Corleone, Michael Corleone, Freddy Corleone, Tom Hagen, Luca Brasi , Johnny Fontane and most important of them all : Don Vito Corleone (The Godfather), I knew that the week meant for me to prepare right on for my GATE had been swept aside. Of course, the sweeping aside is not that literal, but the mere power of the Book 1 of this classic to enough to make you stay awake after the studies till the point your eyes and mind go for a duel!



As a friend of mine had advised me prior to reading the classic, this one is truly an complete education pool. The true meaning of Blood Family, the essence of friendship and loyalty, the tacticity of planning and business acumen....all complied in a mere copy first printed over 6 decades ago! Be it the Don's sleek and charming charisma, enabling him to overpower his enemies, and his hearty soul equipping him with the antics to bond relations and nurture them....or be it Sonny's errand moves, high temperament, erratic intelligence, fearful image....or Tom's undying love for his godfather...you actually end up connecting yourself with either one of the characters' and then enjoying the page turning as if you're reading a diary! I guess that's where lies the true power of this book.



I haven't seen the movie yet. Neither have I read any other masterpieces from Puzo's mind....but I guess am dying for more! Its a sheer feeling....the introduction to the world of Mafia, the fall of Corleones and the rise of an unexpected, brilliant and young son of the family to re-establish the family name! It's simply superb! I myself am a true book buff. I love the like of Dan Brown, Grisham, Nicholas Sparks, Eric Seagal and others....but I guess it's Puzo that has left me baffled at this antique piece of brilliance! No wonder I am writing this note in a small attempt to share my joy to have enjoyed the book, and in a manner, add a tinsel dedication to the sheer classic!



Hats off to the author! Truly in his own words "The book made me such an offer that I simply couldn't resist"! :p



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